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Monday, June 22, 2009

I NEED TO SEE A PSYCHOLOGIST.

Life's just... gets quite stale. the same emotion just overwhelms - and i thought i was ok already. how nice. perhaps im jus deluding myself, grabing onto any safety float around.. i dont know. i dont wanna know. I'm grateful to have a bunch of really great frens.. but sometimes im unsure if they feel I'm taking them for granted? perhaps being too dependent... Ah. wadever. i need a psychologist.

And.. for some reason, i think im getting more emo by the year/day/min/sec/split sec. shit. seriously i keep thinking abt negative stuff and thinking alot which... is... making me feel rather depressed. argh. why isit so that holis pass so fast!! i dont want it to end so soon. and somehow, i just want the stupid upgrading works to end soon. it doesnt help if u're depressed and emo + u're being stranded in such dusty, dirty, hot and smelly place. such a torture. argh.

Oh well, i guess this will be the most boring holiday in my lifetiime. no trips, nothing. guess gotta wait for aug or dec and that's quite a long time more.. END.

~sukai

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Friday, June 19, 2009

A LONG FIRST YEAR IN LSE

i think ive lost the ability to blog. so many things on my mind i wish to update but somehow i cant express them in words! anyway, time always flies when it comes to holidays but time crawls during exam period. just had the worst torture of my life. Going thro LSE exams haven been ez. and im kinda drained. BUT im glad... i survived, results aside.

Anyway, other than blog, im here to thank my special friends: MEL,JX, JESS, HANNAH, GRACE, CRIS and of cos mr n and mr k for their morale support!! hee... i really feel fortunate to have great buddies around me and just wanna let them know, if they need ears/eyes/whatever, i promise to always be supporting them and helping them in every little way! x)

Ok back to LSE. mum came over to tour london and settle accom with me, not too bad had fun!! but accom was a headache cos of one very freaking irritating person. BUT who cares! ive officially dissociated myself from her. and i'll try too as much as i can. she DOES NOT DESERVE all that. tolerated her nonsense for long enuff and time to say GOODBYE. i wont even try to be superficial ard her.. wad a burden.

AND CONGRATS to my ah fung for his concert!! I HAVE the SUDDEN URGE to see him and congratulate him!! hee. so far he's been one star ive loved so much since 2003! and i will continue to support him! he gave me the BESTIEST MEMORIES in 2005/06,NO OTHER STAR including MR K can replace. HE gave me the WEIRDEST IDEAS for creating an ENGLISH NAME for myself, he told me the COLDEST JOKE ever on the phone, and HE's the ONE AND ONLY STAR I'm willing to chase despite him being so popular. cos i know, he really makes an effort to remember me and make me happy! x) thanks to fung, i feel really fortunate to be his fan!

OKIE DOKIE random- im addicted to monopoly! whoever wanna play!!! pls register at pogo.co.uk AND COME PLAY WITH ME!! oh right its steaming here. like boilingg soon. i miss london's weather. argh.

~sukai

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