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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

10 DAYS TURKEY TRIP! and.. MORE siao-ness?!

LOL. i was just re-reading the NEW TEEWEEBEE management's first general meeting text on message history and i realised, this new management is really SIAO GA LIAO! oh gosh!!! i totally laughed my lungs out despite reading it 2 times?! ahhaha.. and yarrr!!! in case some of u are still wondering, i just bought over TEEWEEBEE!!! =P in my dreams lar. ahhaha and... so far, iver got 5 dedicated and... IMH-ish employees!!!! grace, melody, hannah, jess, jx! LOL~ crazy bunch of pple who keeps calling me boss when i totally feel like laughing cos hello?!?! do i have that "bosSy" look? LOL! maybe cos of the HUGO BOSS PERFUME my dad has? then.. kinda gt infected? LOL.. zzz melody gg to scold me again.. for landing her in HMI... not IMH!!! she said she dont want IMH.. so she thought of HMI.. which i think.. is really Suitable for my disciple! =P guess wad it stands for?!? *ahem* HOME for MELODY the INSANE!!!! wakakakka!! and i got kinda *kicked* for that? aiyooo.. pple so nice to u then u still kick me!!! block me!!! hahahaha.. oh mans. i really think im getting abit siao...

anyway, ive been forced to pass my pwer over to grace the DIRECTOR during ym 10days of ABSENCE. wakakakka someone wanna unsurp my throne!!! (jokin lar) but yeahh!!! so far.. i only gt 2 pple with positions in the new TEEWEEBEE?!! anyone else wanna be what de.. come tell me!! or.. settle with grace?! LOL.. jess!! dont complain leh!!! u're manager MOLECULE MARRR!!! LOL... or u wanna be what?!!! hahahahah JX wanna be cleaner right.. ok.. that one.. small issue. *brush aside* HANNAH in charge of KY's future!!! wahahaha... oh mans. stop this siao-ness can? *where's my medicine?!?!*

but yep, my flight is tonight at 11.55pm!! so late! then tis like 12hours flight! which is ZZ cos i hate long flights!! please.. hope its a smooth and safe flight... i don like bumpy as usual! hahaha.. and turkey is 5hrs behind sg time so U GUYS!! wanna find me can! but not when i SLEEP HOR. hahahaha if not!!! DEDUCT UR PAY!!! (wah. i think i damn evil)

yipee! dunno to feel excited or not cos this time im gg with my cousin an family! so there'll be 6pple and 3 rooms! sleeping in same room with my cousin sze lyn! yay! girl power! hahaha.. but they're extending for 5days so i'll be bck first! DON NEED MISS ME PPLE!!! hahaha im just an SMS away!

yeahh... just finish watching L.A and TSOTD last epi! chionggg-ed totally! but L.A really cmi leh. so boring. wakakak. now im gg to do last min packing and prepare to fly!!! hee... yest watched FH2 until i purposely stopped at epi 3 cos.. IM LIVING IN DENIAL. LOL. i don wanna see frankie so sad cos of tingting's death! LOl. so i shall chiong the rest of the cryyyy cryyy epi when im bck! LOl. so far.. i think the cases.. okok only leh.. no impact.. but lets watch on!

wheets~ i cant wait for our first script to be out... frm the new TEEWEEBEE management's most famous director grace! hahhaha looking forward to see the script mans... and yep! i'll be back real soon with updates on turkey and pics! SEE YA GUYS!! take care everyone especially to:

JX: my darling mama!! u make me gan dong larr!!! pei me online for one morning and afternoon even when u're working! LOL.. or rather i shud be thanking ur boss? for being so nice to u!! wahhaha.. anyway, i cant wait for our IT SHOW tgt and our shopping spree!! WHEEE!! work hard, and rest well hor!!! update me on your life when im bck! will sms u before i fly off de... dont miss me !!! muack! u back ache right.. COME LET ME ROU AH ROU FOR U!!! wahahahhaha!!! ROUROU is best!!! LOL.. shhhh nc16.

JESS: YIPEEE YO SIS! hahaha!! im here to reply to ur reply on your blog! (confused?) hahaha.. anw! of cos im waiting for that thing!!! i say ler ma!!! i wanna bring to u know where de!! hee.. shh yeah!! wahahhaha!!! u crappy sis!!! lungs have water for wad?!??!?! lOL~ YEAHHH cheers to my YODA and FRANKIDA!!! hee. no worries, will wait for u until finish exams de!!!! jiayou lor!!! don get distracted ahhh... hahahaha!!! yeahh parents always see grades.. but nvm lar... u just try ur best.. then maybe grades also auto nice nice?!?! wakakka anything PLEASE FIND ME.. my hotline become cold liao cos u never sms me!!! wahhaha!!! NOOOO im veryyy fair!!!! i didnt go sun-tanning!!!! =X anyway!!! u want wad position? come come, take any position!!! LOL. u myo manager alr still not happy?! okk.. then.... !!!!! u decide wad u want! i give grace my emperor stamp liao.. she she... in charge!!! =P waasehhh i bth!!! so crappz. yayy may 13june come soon!!! MISS U!!!

CRIS: OEIII!! darling!!! always like to be so nsughty and suan me!! u know what is suan?? LOL suan means.... tease me!!! LOL. but of cos!!! i will be nice to u cos... my BAG is still with u!!! and... i know.. u'll tell nancy how much i miss her right!! ahahaha dont be jealous larr... im fair.. =P i miss u too ok!!!! wahahhaha take care my dear.. i know u concern abt me but i will be careful and take care too in turkey.. dont worry! LOVE U!!! u can drop me a message if u want to appear anytime. hee. add oil!

okok i just REJECTED ALL SG UNI OFFERS within 2secs!?!!! so rash right! but i dont think i will regret cos im set to go london ler! wish me all the best guys!! yep...i needa go makan my lunch then bathe liao.. needa offline also... OH MANS! i will so BE MISSING U GUYS!! do take care yeah.. especially grace ah... cheer up! gtg!! wait for my entry when im bck!!

~sukai

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

THE UPS AND DOWNS...

recently had been through a roller coaster emotional state... not really cos im moody but cos alot of events and people made me feel that way... first it had to be letting go of him*, then it was the Sichuan Earthquake that shook the hearts of many, and just few days back, it was a passing of my ex-classmate. i really think separation is part and parcel of life... one has to accept, and continue to live well but.. the pain separation has brought to many is far too much for us humans to handle. and i realised that separating from him* is actually not that painful as compared to life and death separation. through the newspapers, pictures of parents crying, pictures of dead bodies are all vividly shown. i nearly broke down when i read about a baby who was alive and kicking because his mother used her body, her flesh, her life to protect the baby, to shield him from the debris and falling rubble.. how noble. how heart wrenching. how sad can life get?

and really.. i was thinking, we really should be happy for the baby to be alive.. but. i will the baby be a happy child? he has lost his parents... and he has lost perhaps the warmth of a family... i really want to help the victims so much, give them support financially and emotionally. i saw this orphaned girl crying so pitifully to the premier because she lost her parents. and the premier assured her that he will take care of her, her life, her studies, everything. but seriously, where's the LOVE? where exactly is the LOVE? NO ONE can ever shower her with the same amount of love as her parents. NO ONE.

yeah, talking about this, i got this pic from yoyo's tvb blog.. she cried too and i really can understand how she would feel.

and the next thing that made me really sian about life is in fact, friends. superficial frens. but... i realised... the pain that these superficial frens inflict on me, really are so much less compared to the pain the victims of the earthquake are suffering from. so really. why should i complain here? nopes, im not complaining. in fact, im grateful, very very thankful to every single sincere friend that ive made. its really through so many happenings that i realise, i need to cherish u people more. you people know who u are, ive always mentioned ur names here. and of course, a few other additions too which... i should thank too.

yeah, life is fragile. my ex-classmate died. in a car accident. sigh. i remember him as a thin boy who loves to play soccer with us (me and angie) in pri school.. and i still vividly recall that he was so thin but he eats alot! then i still said to him "wa, u are sooo hungry is it? so thin and eat 2 plates of chicken rice!" but i really cant rmb his reply. but i rmb his face, his smile. now. he's gone. GONE forever. i dunno what to say when i heard this news frm jx. but i jus felt that, when we really appreciate someone, we should express our feelings, make them known, so we wont have any regrets. sigh. may GOD bless him and let him rest in peace.

after so much sad stuff, i needa do some balancing right?... yeah, so im here to talk slightly about FORENSIC HEROES 2! hahaha... so many pple guessed correctly my new love eh! hahaha but they guessed 1 correct only! LOL.. and melody keeps reminding me she knows by yoyoyo-ing away in msn!! hahahaa! feels like a reminder to be "loyal" to her! and jx.. is even more mad! she keeps saying "yo ah yo, yo ah yo" then give that cat shaking the butt icon to "seduce me"?!?! waaa.. i always LOL when i see that! ahhha... yep fotos frm tvb.com cos i realise my blog is so foto-less.

and yes, matthew is handsome to the core! hahaha he's not my top fav but still i like! i go for sunshine boys and....

hahahah choose 1.... who is my new love?! LOL. hahaha jess and jx and hsieh hui... dont say ah. LOL. the rest, continue guessing! hahaaha. ok this one is mild-ly salted. hahahah.. means like abit lar. cos handsome! but... the next one will make JX HIGH!!! altho her poor linda died in epi6... hush hush.... and i kinda told her and jess that frankie is so poor thing cos he alone. so i WANNA REPLACE LINDA!!! then frankie no need alone!!! CHIONG! wahahhahah JOKING only anw. later kenix and linda fans come slaughter me! hahaha. JOKINGGGGGGGGG!

yep, i kinda like frankida somehow.. but their hair here.. SUCKS. LOL. and yo ah yo one also.. agree with jess.. like MOP! hahaha.. ok end of session! continue to chiong FH2 la people!! its A SHOW NEVER TO BE MISSED! and...these 3 below are LOVES! oohhh i realised smthg!!! there's KFC in the FH2!!! can guess what's that?!?! wahahhaha!!! (hint: to do with the cast)

lol...and congrats to nancy! her blog is number 1 !!!! beat LAM FUNG ONE!!! hahahaha cos fung one been no.1 for years. LOL kk! random. off i go to sleep!

~sukai

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Monday, May 19, 2008

I HAVE A NEW LOVE?!

before i profess my love for my new love, im deeply sorry for the late late replies to the tags for me... been neglecting my blog due to 90% viwawa-ing and 10% laziness = 0% work done. sorries! and cos its already past bed-time... i think i wont reply until after my test on wed. geez. ive gt driving on thurs also so basically, im packed like tuna in a can.

oh well... been really busy tuitioning my kids until i only have mornings and late nights to spare. haha.. that's when i started re-watching Forensic Heroes 1 on scv... LOL. really super nice series with 70% well crafted cases and 30% fantastic cast! LOL!! hahaha! why am i using percentages now. faint. anyway, im sooo anticipating for the entire FH2 dvd to come out and i'll grab 1 and bring to london watch watch! hahaha really hope the cases would be better. but seriously... will this new part's focus be on the cast (which is sooo star studded) or will it be on the cases? no doubt, i love... SOMEONE!! but... i rather they have nicer plots than actors inside! LOL.. hahaha actually anyone with my msn shud have guessed who's my new love... hahaha.. she's superrrrrr pro inside la.. somehow it got me thinking of whether i wanna join forensics... been my dream since i was 14yrs old..

but i seriously dont see any link btw econs and forensics. LOL. which is really sad... i like their job scope la! so fun, exciting, bone chilling!!! whee~ but... one negative point... BLOOD and BONES.. lol. oh well... i think my dream wouldnt be fulfilled afterall. oh yes.. and to sidetrack, i think im mad. i rmb first time i watched FH i use to ignore frankie's presence.. but now when i watch the repeat, he's starting to get "more shun yan" LOL. uh no!!!! someone pls stop my love list from increasing. thks. hahaha

~sukai

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Saturday, May 10, 2008

THANKS TO DARLING CRIS and WU TING YAN!

thanks so much everyone for your concern. im feeling alot better now. have learnt to let go and live my life because so many people around me cherish and love me so much. thanks to all my dearest buddies who tagged. will reply your taggies asap. right now, im feeling so blessed and happy again! cos... cris darling made my day! i received this registered mail frm her yesterday and thanks to her for the ever so EXPENSIVE bday present!!! i promise i will use the LeSportsac wallet she bought when im going to london and think of her! she's such a silly sweetie of mine. always ask me to think of her more than think of nancy. wahahha jealous eh. but yep, i really do cherish this special lovely sweetie darling of mine more than WU TING YAN ok!!! although inside the mail... i had a SUPER SURPRISE from TING YAN... hahaha she's sooo freaking cute la. inside the mail there are signed photos with my name written and the most unexpected thing was this white plain paper with NANCY's words written nicely on it!

was stunned! i was thinking how come cris let nancy write on white paper and nt some other nicer paper?! and i was like "scolding" cris for being so cute and silly cos white paper v hard to keep la. then cris told me ITS ACTUALLY NANCY's PAPER!?!?!?! cos she brought home my photos and signed then i guess she read my letter so the words on the paper is actually a reply to my letter! plus the paper was hers so wa....!! i told myself im so gonna frame it up. LOL. one day go ask her for her handprint?! hahaha jkjk.

pretty busy these days reading up and practising ftt. sian. its really super difficult! hopefully i can stop playing viwawa and get down to work when im online.... zzz. addicted to bridge alr. and "match it" LOL. ok shall go mug again.

~sukai

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Thursday, May 01, 2008

GRATEFUL. because i have ALL of U.

very very very thankful to everyone who showered me with concern and love for the past days. been really in a distraught and emo-ish state that even i cant believe that all my happiness dissolved into tears. and the worst thing about me now is that, i dont even know where are my true feelings. in front of my parents, im pretending to be happy. when im with my close frens im trying so hard to be my usual self because i really dont want them to be overly worried. so now, my heart can be welling up with tons of tears but nothing comes out of my eyes. that's really bad. i didnt expect the outcome to be like that. i thought i would be mentally prepared.. but i was so wrong. no doubt, i didnt regret my decision.. but its what im experiencing now that is truly torturous and thats what i didnt really expect.

then, i started reading those tags my dearest frens wrote to me here. those who care for me from the bottom of their hearts, and a message by someone i decline to name. i read them over and over again.

i felt so helpless suddenly. on one hand i really needed people to give me advice on what to do, i really needed a listening ear but on the other i wouldnt want them to feel guilty or sorry if they couldnt help me like this friend who wrote such a touching message:

" sukai: sorry for not being able to stay by your side these days as a friend...sometimes..i feel i've failed for that but i'll promise...i'll be there for you.hope you don't mind about that and may something sunny comes to you soon!SHOO~ the dark clouds away.... ^^ "

i dunno what i should do. but all i know is i have to be HAPPY again. ive gotta let less people worry for me. and ive gotta bring happyness and not guilt or worries into other people's lives. so i promise, everyone of u here who tagged or wrote msg for me on their blogs, I WILL be my old self again. BECAUSE OF U GUYS. i can do it.

***thanks for giving me the strength. thanks for the concern and numerous "ears" lended to me espeically to:

JESS: thanks for your long long long tag! somehow everytime i talk to u i would feel so much HAPPIER cos you're really siao sot sis.. but its really the right time to be siao la cos maybe your siao-ness can really speed up my healing process. really appreciate your advice, help and of course siao remedy. haha.. of course i'll wait for your exams to end! u rmb what i promised u? since u pei-ed me for A levels, my turn to pei u for your exams alright?! dont be hesitant to sms me when u're bored from studying... and of course, promise to lend u my ears ANYTIME u need em! and of course, please dont forget our promise, to be HAPPY WOMANSSS and to be freed from unnec relationship probs alrighto? yep, everything TOGETHER! loves!

JX: dont worry u need not feel bad ok? because in fact im the one who is supposed to feel bad. everytime when i need your ears, u will be so busy that i don dare to tell u much because im afraid u might be worried. but as you said in my bday msg, its time to grow up. i must learn to handle such things well.. and im learning to. thanks for your sincere msg to me and even if u cant be with me to share my probs becos of work, i know u will be there supporting me till the end. so dont worry, u will always be my BESTIEST, LOVELIEST MAMA cum da jiejie cum guardian angel.. thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being there for me and listening to me. remember, dont need to feel bad yea? hopefully can get to talk to u more before i fly off. will really miss u so much u know...

SASA: my dearest friend, i really know what u want to say... im feeling much better now. thanks for sharing with me about your experience too... all i can say to u now is.. i think im really not fit to be your "professor" cos this time i failed you and i failed myself. sorry also because i shouldnt have encouraged you to tell "him"..but... i can be your "happy professor" because i hope your problem will be solved soon. lets add oil together for everything and support each other ok?

GRACE: buddy! thanks for listening to me share my problems last night. really think somehow we're talking more often now on msn! which is weird cos i got to know u for few yrs ler but only now that we're closer !? haha.. but thanks for kai dao-ing me and sharing with me your problems too! promise that if u need someone to talk, can find me! and i look forward to our MONOPOLY session with jess and melody soon!!! and and... one day must really go out with u, melody and jess ok?! thanks alot bud!

MELODY: ahem.. my scratch and win addict buddy... always trying to con scratch cards from me in exchange for your ears... hahah nightlight robbery also. but yeah.. thanks for your drinks and whatsoever virtual that cheered me up these few days. and of cos, thanks for you for pei-he-ing me when im ever so lame previously. hahah. finally i found someone who appreciates my COLDNESS hahaha. i really cant wait for the MONOPOLY cum chit chat session u know! btw, i was thinking of chalet with u guys... since my dad can book but when are your holis?! hopefully can! then we can ask our gang to stay over and BBQ, play, sing, cycle and picnic?! haha.. cheers to my new found buddy with the same frequency as me. thanks too for your EVER SO EXPENSIVE EARS. haha.

XUESI: hey... thanks for being here for me everytime i need u. altho u dont tag often i sense that u're a frequent reader of my blog and somehow u're like some guardian angel looking over me which i really appreciate. dont worry, im healing real fast with everyone's support. and actually i dont really feel like sharing too much cos its over. maybe u can guess what happened but need not ask me. just let this pass. time will heal all wounds.

CRIS: my darling sweetie, im so glad that u changed your comp and lost my blog url actually cos its a blessing in disguise... i dont really want you to see me in this state cos im supposed to be your 开心果! so let me apologise for not telling you my problems and blog url although u asked, and i thank you for your deepest concern... maybe when im feeling much better and when my blog is filled with happier entries then i will let u know my url. anyway, thanks for always being my BIG JIE JIE and taking care of everything for me. Making me happy cos of little things u do for me and calling me sweetie like what u call nancy. haha. makes me feel so close to you. its a pity u cant come to sg now... but dont worry, i will wait.. no matter what, u're always my darling ok.. and dont be jealous la!!! My love for tingyan is different from my love for u! >3<'' ok censored cos even i cant stand the mushyness.

**REPLIES TO TAGGies:

JERMAINE: haha YEAh! its was fun fun but BJ the service really cmi. dun like their attitude also cos they're really super impatient and unfrenly!!! unlike HK la... zzz. oh, haven been seeing you online so u must be really bz with your major proj? when isit over?! no matter what, jia you for major project ok? and perservere! u can do it. thanks for your concern too...

~sukai

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