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Sunday, June 27, 2004

boohooo. time passes so fast and sch gonna start tmr. well, tmr seems like today and today seems like yesterday. really frightening to watch time fly. gosh. and i still have amaths tys not done yet. yesh, YET. is the word. wad a slacker. anywayz, i hate this feeling. some weird weird feeling i got. it seems to like take over my mind, my soul. change myself into somebody who hates school. well, i do not really hate school but i hate.. **** and ***. ahahha i guess some pple would know. hate it. so many things to do. to memorise to study. wa. stressed. i dunch know wad's gonna happen to me when i really study to my limits. haha. maybe shd relax.. well, well, i proved to myself to be a slacker in the first half of the yr. so i better work harder for yr end. yepps, and i need my goody goody sista* *jess* to remind me and push me on!! we'll support each other yar? all the best sista! and do study hard! <>

oh yar. i dunch know what's wrong with myself. jus hate holis cos it seems boring but when sch starts i hate it too! hahaha aiya. so mar fan. anywayz! i so so so loveee holis. hahaha and i'm missing my dearest sista! *jess* and *manda*. shoosh.. i forgot. *leprechuan* also! hahaha to lepra* thankew so so much for being such a great jie jie! yesh,.. mei mei grow up le still need this jie to guide me.. hahah so stay happy! and thanks a lot for showing ur concern when.. u know when. *thankew*

okok let's stop this. thanking. wad i did for the past wk. went out. slp. eat. watch tv. hahaha boring. so no point writing all these down! =)

~purple gal~ || life is transient ||

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Friday, June 18, 2004

-life is not anything but an illusion-

these days i began to think that all i have, wad i own are jus imaginary. its so superficial. but somehow i jus feel something's lacking in my life. someone maybe. i know its over and i was the one who wanted it to be over. its very clearly stuck in my head that all's gone. but i still feel sad. confused. i blame myself for being a jinx and hurting all the pple around me. i truly regret making this friend. regret starting it and havin to end it. altho' i know i must. life is transient. and so everything else is. even love. do u believe so? i guess i have no say to this. its my fate. nothing will ever change.

i know someday the someone would read this... but i hope its not so soon. i do not want that person to regret too. that'll do more harm than gd. i hate myself for being so selfish. and i hate the word that makes a person "hate". becos afterall it'll nvr be the same again, and this makes the start and end to something so imaginary. so timeless. i cant grasp it. and i'm losing grip.

but being able to be your fren is one of my lifetime's regret - in a gd and bad way. regret for not treasuring you* and regret for allowing things to get in our way. actually, i blame this on my actions only. so to you* : pls do not feel guilty. its all my doings. and i'm reallie sorry. sometimes i stand in front of the mirror. thinking. thinking abt who am i. and why is everything goin agst me. now, i think no more. cos i believe everyhting is jus an illusion. beauty is an illusion and I myself too.

~purple gal~ || life is beautiful but it can be painful sometimes ||

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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

urghhs! i spent one entire day doin A maths. sian sian. very boring. so difficult somemore the ques. haiz. futile day. spent like 30mins on one quest and there were 20 ques. so imagine. how long can that get mann!... anywayz, tmr i still hace tuition even more sian but heckk, i geta see elaine!! hahaha bot stuff for her.. she bot stuff for me too! so sweeeet' of her. thankew elaine! =)

jus now watched *BF2* so so nice kkk.. i luvrree the show mann.. hahaha. haiz. school starting soon le. i wonder how slack can i still get. or how stress can i get. whew. wad a holiday. actually i mus really thank my dearest jessica** for her encouragement and everything.
<< best sistas forever >> yeahh. now toking to her and bryan. wahh bryan ah bryan.. u take so long to reply one msg frm me... u bz then say la. anywayz, dunno whether u got read my blog anot but mus thankew also for ur understanding cos me kp changing time and kp askin u come online.
*gee* beri irritating sia. i know. sorries.. keep smiling anywayz!=)happy happy.

alrightoo, that's all for now! gdnites and slp tight guys.:)

~purple gal~ || i dunno whether to love u a not ||

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

spam.wad a tiring day. spent my time doin hw. hw. and more hw. but also kinda wasted some time here and there... goin online, watching tv. shoosh. dunno if i ever can complete my aep, amaths. dead. anywayz, i think i'm meeting up with my dearest buddies! lynette and perhaps sheena!!.. yeahh! kinda happy in that sense but still.. haiz. dunno why when i think school gonna start le then i'll feel very uneasy. as if i dread school.. but in fact i don. i jus dunno why la. maybe too long on break le.

wadever the case i should be very happy still.. cos there's burning flame tmr!~ burning flame 2 is super nice got xuannn* yeahhh!!!! i loveee the shpw cos of her mann. alrights. i better stop here. gonna do some aep. shoosh n goodnite!

~purple gal~ || i cant bear to part with u ||

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Monday, June 14, 2004

argh.. so much holiday hw not finished yet. bleah. so stressed now. rushing thro' everything like a mad dog. wad holiday is this mann! other schools also not like that. haiz. now i have to slp for 5hrs everyday jus to finish my hw. finish only. no time to do revision. bleah. wad a yr mann... everything so konk! up. bam! so pissified now. cant stand it. dunno how my other classmates can rush out the hw on time mann. totALLY crappy stuff this yr.. arghhh. maybe good time for some but i dread this kind of " no revision rush thro work " type of schedule. dunno wad i'm doin somemore. shoosh! alrites i'll kp this short and work on somemore hw. bleahh. spoils my holi. this yr really so stressful sia. i think maybe i'll like konk! up for yr end. but i tell myself i cant!... cos. i really cant. haiz. nobody noes wad i'm feeling.. i guess. u know, pple think for me its easy.. but i think i'm stressing myself out. really. so relax mann will you?!?!. sorrie arh. i cant.

okies, i guess i better do something now. or else i really cant finish my work le. think i wont blog for next few days. yeapps, take care pple!

~purple gal~ || complicated ||

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Saturday, June 12, 2004

yeappiee! i'm back! :)
i enjoyed myself thoroughly mann! wad a shiok trip. AND.. haha i made frens again! so so many.. hahah and of course two gd frens.. wellz, i kinda miss them now.. hahah cos' i'm back home and they're not. they actually goin for the 12 days trip to london... so they will be back on sunday which is tmr! yeahh! lynette* and sheena* u guys rock mann.. thanks for making my trip so fun and enjoyable.. i remember we were like laughing all the way on the coach. haha lynette and i were like making some unknown shapes abt non living things and we were enjoying ourselves.. laughing at some silly jokes and lame stuff.. hahaha her laughter is so so contagious mann.. hahahaa

then the night b4 i left for spore we took the cruise around some parts of paris and the scenery was marvellous. so so romatic and dreamy mann.. hahaha. and lyn and i were acting like some dumb PI s goin around snappin pix of edwin and his galfren. ahahaa edwin is our bus driver. he's extremely farnie... ahhaha and stephen was our guide. that guy is worse. he's lame. hahahaha... anyway, this time the grp tour was so fun!! and i still remember lyn and i were so happy together laffing and laffin.. then we took pix together with sheena and we ran around like mad dogs in the hotels, banging at each others' door and screaming.. gosh. i really acted as if i was 3 yrs old. bleahh. but whu cares, i did enjoy myself.. heehehex.

i bot lotsa stuff there.. like books, souvineurs and chocolates! hahaah my luggage was super full and heavy when i got back so really had a hard time luggin it home.. hahaha. as i promised, i will pass these gifts to u guys whom "ordered" frm me... hahaha.. kk, and yar! one more comical thing, lyn and i were so fascinated by the bubble gum machine in france... ahhaha we were overjoyed jus to watch the ball of bubble gum in diff colours rolling down. hahaha... wad an unusual sight mann.. :X

okaess, i also wanna thank *jess*, *dee*, *daniel*- the idiot who nvr reply my msg. but at least "said" goodbye to me b4 i left. ahahaha.. *jess* thanks for ur sms es. hahaha cos its too ex so i din sms much. sorryy.. *deeZ* i got smthg very special for u only. ahhaha thanks for being so nice to me! =)

wahh. so long sia. i better stop le. see ya guys soon! take care & stay happy!

~purple gal~ || the distance btw us is wider that the horizon ||

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Wednesday, June 02, 2004

yeahhh!!! 4hrs to go and i'll be off to switzerland~ yeappieeee..so excited until cant eat dinner. haha actually we went fiesta for dinner... but i was kinda full so din eat much. jus one plate of sushi. hehehe.. okies, i hope i brought everything i needed. cos i m so rushing thro' this entry now... haha. alrites, i'll be missing u guys here so if u r kinda bored or dunno wad to do.. sms me hahahaha. cos most of the time i can reply. (i hope) ok ok chill. i m so excited noww. hahaha. and i so look forward to the trip. and yar. two idiot pple requested for swiss snow.! how foolish can they get mann.. ahhahaaah. no actually, its three.. hehe.. i'll remmeber dee,daniel and saleena. haha if can i'll bring swiss water.!! hahahaha. lame. okie, i better go change and get ready to go! so happy! really pray to god that i'll have a safe and enjoyable trip! =) thankew everyone who made my day!

*jess* thanks a lot for u know wad. thanks for the sms es. miss ya! sms me yar? okie okie parents nagin le. i better get changed anD off i go!!! hahaha oh yesh, i wont be updating until 12/13 of june so haha.. don urge me to update yar?... thankies.

~purple gal~ || i miss ya || =love is like the sea=

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