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Wednesday, December 31, 2003

last day of 2003.strong>a memorable yr has jus passed. lotsa sweet sour bitter memories are still in my head... and i wonder wad has the new yr got for me.. surprises? unhappiness? or jubilation? well, i wont know and hahaha.. all i know is i have to go back to school soon and i m having post holiday stress. goodness me... seems like i m already 400 yrs old, so many ailments... ahhahas... okies.. recollections surfacing in my head again.. makes it throb real hard... u know... bitter stuff... this yr was kinda bad for me too... oh well, all the unhappy things have already passed so maybe i jus have to forgive and forget. its better that way. let time do the work as i said... so so i guess no matter how hard/bad 2003 is, i still love every yr tt has passed. yeahhh. 1+ hour more then its 20041!! yeappieeee. its the new yr so happy new yr everyone!!! well, i guess i got to place all the past memories behind and look into the future.. as wad *winnie* said i have to start a new yr well.. =) i will!

so here are my new yr resolutions:
. dun sms too much/ come online for too long
. dun watch too much tv prog.
. concentrate 100% on studies dun go astray
. work hard, do well
. be a guai gal make parents happy
. let everyone around me be happy

yeapps! tt's abt it... hmmm.. maybe its not too easy to fulfil but i guess i will try my bestie! alrites, 2003 is a sad yr so i wont mention abt it futher. its about time to watch the countdown party... and i love this feeling of anitcipation for smthg... so cool.. hahahs.. toking abt 2004, its really scary.. sec3 lehz... some pple say its hard... but i wont really know if i didnt go thro tt stage maybe i will tell u guys some other time hahhaas... wad a nice time for partying! hahahas.. not again. me still in holiday mood mann... so idiot. haiz. heck care liaoz. must let myself be in a study mood or i wont concentrate urghh... why liddat??? haiz.. looking forward to tmr!.... goin out and goin to granny's hse to play play play... ahhaha with my dearesr cousins... hahaha... *jess* i feel so silly but yest i got a sweet sweet and nice hk dream abt ada,joyce,marco,xuan and bobby... so farnie.. i was in it too.. hahahas.. so lame mann.. too crazy abt hk liaoz i think hahahas.. well, im off see ya guys next year!! =)) hahahas. wont update too often but will make an effort too! =)) byeees and happy 2004.

~purple gal~ * its time i say goodbye to all the bitter memories! its a new yr so sMiLeS :) *

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Tuesday, December 30, 2003

heyys, wad a nice chilly day today!! ahhh... feel like sitting in front of a cosy fireplace and start day dreaming rite now. so sad. sch gonna start soon and i will be coming back frm my dream holiday!! argh... wells, maybe it is not a bad thing. work can cure all ure worries and boredom so maybe its gd in tt sense. anywayz, i m still in a super high holiday mood. ahhh.. and i havent really completed my aep and chinese. need some revision too for maths.. so not really holidaying... i dun like this feel. on a holiday yet have to think abt hw. urgh.

anywayz, thanks *jess* my dear sister for writing me tt note. so nice of u. and hope u know why i cant say too much here. u know. abt u... hahahhas. sms yar? altho' it's super ex. but i dun care!!! hahahas.. remember? ahhahas/ okie okies... i love ar3 todays last epi. frm wad jess said. i watched it b4 and i love the ending and the plot!!! since ar3 ended i hope ar4 will come out soon!!!! i loveeee joyce like siao now and hk has so much stuff abt her!!! loveee her so so much hope marco and her will be together forever.

wells, now to the bleak side of my life. always wanted to say this but maybe i shouldnt... my dearest sweetest auntie/koko has cancer. cancer u know. the same one as anita mui... i really *pray* tt heaven wont take her away too soon cos all her loved ones will find it very very hard to accept tt fact and even her daughter... my cousin. she's still young.. *prays sincerely* hope she would be fine. **let miracles happen** well, now i know the feel of losing a loved one. she has always been so so good to me. every since i was born she took care of me like her own flesh and blood. i truly truly love her and dun wish to see her hurt in anyway. oh wells, but its hard...cancer is fatal... now i jus hope tt she will stay happy evryday and let her worries cease to exist. *prays hard* tell me someone!!! how can i face this reality bravely?.. hope to hear for some gd advice frm frens. i dunno wad will happen but if this continues, i might go into severe depression...haiz... maybe i shouldnt worry too much and unnecessarily... sighs.

well, i will write more abt her tmr... and every detail if i have the time. i can cry myself to bed everytime i think of this... its so depressing... nthg matters now except my aunt. i hope GOD will bless her with good health and forever happiness with her loved ones beside her. i will defintely be beside her if she needs me so i think maybe i shd jus leave everything in God's hands. *sobs* its hard to accept this fact... i jus hope she wont leave us but i have to be prepared... jus in case....okies. end this entry in a solemn mood. tmr i shall concentrate better... *wishes*

~purple gal~ *parting is only part and parcel of life's journey - be prepared*

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Monday, December 29, 2003

heyy *jess* great to see ya so happy! make me happy too so i hope to thank u sincerely for such a wonderful day... ahhahas... anywayz, i wont write a long one cos im feeling sleepy and tired. jus feel rather sad cos me cant go online for long hrs liaoz... 1030 must be in bed which means i m totally shattered. internet is my solace mann.. esp. toking to frens. make me feel so happy. and now jess cant sms me too much so i feel alone. totally alone. orhz... and i wanna thk my dear cousin for helping me post this up hahahahs. cos i will be in hk liaoz by time u guys read this. dunno wad time she is coming online but thanks jia yan!! *hugs*

yeaps.. its sad tt i cant chat with many late owls in the nite. like daniel the tortoise for one... and stef. clarissa, jess my sister... and manda, andrew, weixian. haizz... wadever the case stay in contact yeah?... and yeaps. all e best for nxt yr! well, its hard to come together as frens so i will definitely cherish our frenship. yeaps. and do tag if u come by! hahahas... okie.. more like a "last" bloggin for me cos if i dun have enuff time for surfing, then i wont even blog when sch starts.. so sorry guys, this blog will most likely be not frequently updated. sec 3 marhs... study comes first. okies.. rushing to write this b4 i slp and get ready to go! hahahas... and now... jus wanna thank every fren who was/is part and parcel of my life. thanks for adding colours to my life and thks for being there. *gk*,*stef*,*teri*,*jess* especially. ahhahas. alrites. i m off! see ya around and sms me if u guys feel bored!

~purple gal~ *will post some quotes tt rep my current emotions if i dun have time to blog =)*

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Sunday, December 28, 2003

okie. wad to say?... jus feeling slacky. and so this holi. has been rather slackish for me.. and now. eveything including my language is slacking so so so better buck up mannz. oh wells, got a great great great scolding cum naggin frm my mum... "y ure table still so messy one arhz?" "go clear this n that!" haiz. i m a real bad gal. so my new yr resolution is to change for the better. yeapps. and of course study hard. okies. 4 more days count down and back to school again... argh. stressed. oh no!... my aep too...

haiz... anywayz, i hope i can go off and relax for a while b4 sch starts... ahhahaa.. and yeaps, might not be blogging so take care and happy new yr to all! okies. now... i feel silly. sitting in front of the monitor and feeling half dead. rite rite. juz to round up this yr i would say i didnt realy study hard and its too late to regret so i shd pull up my socks. and i learned lotsa new stuff thro' wonderful experiences... so its a rather fruitful yr in terms of socialising... and yeapps. responsibility. so not too bad. but still feeling abit jumpy now... feel like relaxing forever yet might feel so so bored during the holis... so might as well study. hahahas. ironic mann. okie..was feeling sad jus now but now kinda okie le. haiz. nxt yr i can only watch 1 hr of tv, come online for 1 hr only and i feel so so restricted!!!! but think optimistically, i guess its wei wo hao. hahahas. okies. let it be. i am goin, shall be and definitely will STUDY HARD! no distractions? *prays* hope i can concentrate yeah? thks *whispers* orhz... time to turn in! tmr will be a bz day so wheee.. i m off!

~purple gal~ *Facing the full moon with hidden sorrows*

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Saturday, December 27, 2003

lalalalala..i m feeling very very happy today... how i wish everyday was like today. oh wells, hhahhaha cos i feel super happy after goin out with jini and daniel... shiokers. the movie was damn lame... anna in kungfu land. hahahahas... still haven got over the lame lame lame parts..but at least it was kinda exciting n funny..lol... yupps. so exhausted mann... wad a long day!! anywayz, now chatting with daniel and jessica.. he takes a super long time to reply still ask me kuai dian... very good lor... haiz.. nxt yr they meeting again... hahhaas.. but me not meeting them le i think cos sec3 is a bz and hectic yr... preparing for o's so so so.. cant meet i think... that's wad my mum says... i dunch know... let fate decide hahahas.

but indeed goin out with them is a joy... sometimes maybe... cos i m usually the one who arranges the meeting and this ans tt so i feel damn idiot esp. if i were to ask and bug daniel.. feel so so silly lor... why on earth must the person be me? dunch really know but wellz, i m willing... ahhahas. okies.. i wont write a long entry for now.. cos i m super tired and i needa write a time table... lolx. so yeapps. see ya guys soon!! MIGHT NOT BE BLOGGING UNLESS MY DAD BRINGS A COMP OVERSEAS! HAHAHAS... kk byeee! and take care everyone!

~purple gal~ *waves*

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Friday, December 26, 2003

hey hey guys!! feeling rather happy after xmas day! well, jus one thing to be sad of... nxt week wont be goin to my granny's hse le... cos will be away!! yeahh.. so happy.. might not be blogging even! cos i m goin overseas!!! jus for a short trip maybe... hehehe.. feeling so so happy and hyper!! okies,i guess my prayers did come true and so i must really thank God. *whisper my thks* and yeapps, tmr i will be goin out with daniel and sojini!!!hahah looking forward to it cos hahah jus feel super relaxed with them... oh wells, its the last meeting anywayz, so i hope it would be fun! *prays* yeapp, today was a rather hectic day for me...

woke up at 9 this morning and i smsed *jess* ahhaha she woke up earlier then me mann!!! hahaha so we sms ed a lot until like late morn, then i had to stop cos haiz... have work to do... aep lor.. so idiot. anywayz, i tried so hard to complete it but to no avail... i m still stuck with my sketches... haiyoz... so stressful proj and subj to take mannz.... okie okie... and after tt, i was super tired but hahaha my mum and i went for a walk and went to find joanne jie. hahahaa she was so engrossed in her work tt she didnt notice tt we were staring!!... hhaha, really hilarious.. then when she wasnt bz, we went in to give her a pressie i bot frm japan and china! hahah she liked it i guess.. oh wells, then it was abt 7 liaoz so went to granny's hse fro dinner... oh gosh this is so jinx. the moment i reached daniel called my hp... wah sia.. my bill was like 60 dollars this mth and dad hollered at me liaoz... so i told him i call him back... wad a timing mann... cos i go there usually have to eat dinner str8 away... cant tok to him... so made it brief... we like chatted for a little while abt some stuff then have to go le... cos grandparents were nagging away...

hahah... oh then later after dinner went ot watch esther's show!! hahaha i always loved esther's acting.. till now but i guess love *xuan* more hahahaa.. so so so... yupps, then had a fun time with my baby cousin jing en and cousins: jia yan and sze lyn... wad fabulous names... ahhaa.. yupps, so went home juz in time to watch ar3!!! hahaha goin to end soon liaoz altho' i watched le but still v. thrilling hahah when i watch again... n now.. i m so tired *yawns* so better slp early... tmr meeting jini at 1115... hahaha

~purple gal~ *a baby brings so much joy to the family*

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Thursday, December 25, 2003

Xmas day!!! feeling happy but dunno wadda say... hahaha

*jess*
merry xmas! i will sms u lots of nice stuff and hahah hope we r meeting soon! =) cyaz

~purple gal~

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Wednesday, December 24, 2003

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!!

i m so so happy so i hope to share my joy and elation with all of you guys!!... haha... i guess i loveeee to stay jus beside a church mann.. esp. during x'mas time!! and gosh, guess wad?!?! i DO STAY BESIDE A CHURCH!!! AND TODAY i can feel that thick and strong atmosphere in the air... x'mas atmosphere lingering around mann.. its such a wonderful feel to be around with ure family goin for a spin and today right after dinner my dad took us(me n mum) for a spin mann!!! around orchard rd area it was so so memorable and i was pract. dreaming away in the car for a PERFECT X'MAS. finally, after much thought and planning, i think this is my perfect x'mas:

in singapore. taking a spin with my frens on the buslting streets and after that goin to a pub or smthg to havoc. hahaha... or maybe have a real high feel and go somebody's hme and party party party mann... ahhahaa.. okie *jess* said i cant be notti. but i dunn think i m lehz if i do this... hahaha anywayz, i ALWAYS ENJOY MYSELF DURING XMAS!!!! hahaha i love love love *infinity xmas mood!!! always filled with relXAtion JOY and fun!!!! ahhaha feeling super hyper now! after my spin today and dinner with my family... hhahaa tmr wuld be better... having a nice warm lucnh with my "whole" family.. including relatives ahhaha its gonna be so so fun!!! i m gonna fall in love with this day... hahah too bad that daniel nt in spore mann.. cant enjoy xmas mood!!! ahhaha =)) oh wells, now as i m blogging i can hear music and songs frm the church downstairs... ahhaha... so nice songs but truthfully, the person who sings it is not tt good.. hahhah but who cares!!! jus love the atmosphere here u guys must come and experience mann.. maybe when i grow up i would invite u guys to come over and PARTY!!!! hahahha have fun mannz.

yupps so i m so eager to count down today!!! yeahh!! welcome santa!!! ahhahaa... oh wells, i really have many many wishes but hahaha i m not tt greedy.. hope three most imptones will come true..now cant say cos... it wont be so effective liaoz... hahaha.. so shhh... ahhaha ohhh i love love this song.. called complicated hahaha u know?? so shiok.. hahah chinese songs now... not too bad... at least i know how to singgg... now no more hw in my mind le... all tt is popping out is PARTY PARTY HAVOC HAVOC. ENJOY XMAS!~!!! tt's all so wonderful feel to be FREEE!! ahahha xmas gives me damn special feelings ... warmth, joy, happiness, freedom, peacefulness and mixed positive feelings so i love this season best!!! maybe i would emmigrate to overseas someday or spend xmas there... hahah jus hope to get the best feel ever!!! oh wells, now i m jus gonna off all my lights and enjoy the champagne in front of me and eat some chips and listen to the music outside. no air con so can immerse myself totally!!! ahhahaha.. i really can RELAX hor~ hahaha

okies, now im off to chat with frens! hope tt i will experience another wonderful xmas again!!! hahah so yeapps, see ya tmr!!! and tmr is XMAS so i will/will not be blogging.. mostly i will write abt my gathering tmr... ahhaha ENJOY URESELVES EVRYONE!!! nites!! and SWEET DREAMS*

~purple gal~ *whistling a xmas carol and dancing around the room*

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Tuesday, December 23, 2003

well, i m in no mood for blogging today. will edit this entry tmr. *jess* is sick. hope she gets well soon! as her fairy sister i will protect her frm harm and may god bless her with gd health too!! cyaz guys.. feeling so burderned by aep. as *clarissa* said totally didnt have time to relax this holi. except for my tour which was super dupa fun!!!... haiz.. agree... guess nxt yr would be tough for me... didnt touch my sec3 bks at all.. lol. wish me luck guys!!

~purple gal~

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Monday, December 22, 2003

"the day u walked out of my life was the day i closed the door of my heart to anyone else. It was the day where laughter ended. and rain clouds rolled in. it was the day tears flowed without cease. it was the day u walked out of my life. the day when i was left all alone." Wonderful quote frm *jess* blog. feel exactly the same mann!!!

okie. its gonna be xmas soon and i so dunn feel the mood. its not tt usual this yr... haha well that's becos very litta pple sent me xmas cards... hahah my mailbox is usu. flooded with xmas cards during this time of the yr.. so feeling a little down... maybe i have less and less close frens liaoz... dunch really know. but jus wanna apologise to anybody whom i have made angry this yr. sorries to many peeps. and well, MERRY XMAS IN ADVANCE TO ALL!! i guess now pple send e cards rather then by post hahaa.. but to all whose cards i have received: THANKS =) apreciate it!

as for now, i m feeling happy. today went to look around in various bookstores for some books.. cant really find a one that i like... haha... and went kino, bot a horoscope bk kinda interesting... maybe i shdnt be too "into" this but oh wells, i take it as some fun kinda thing... hahaa... anywayz, tmr will be super boring again.. only thing im looking forward to is to get my new specS!! HAHAAH... lets see wad i will do tmr... omg...lotsa things planned... cos i m planning to start on my sec3 stuff... jus abit here and there... so here is wad i m gonna do!

.e maths
.literature reading bk
.online
.tv

hahaha slack rite? hahaha told u guys le... wonder wad's got into me... now feel like slacking so so much but i will be guai mus work hard!!! do well for next yr and o's... hahaha so jia you!! to myself i mean.. hahah alrites gonna update another blog. byeeee! cyaz

~purple gal~ *love the quote above*

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Sunday, December 21, 2003

yeah yeah!!! i m so happy... my dad bot lotsa things for me for xmas prezzie... ahahha and he even wants me to go on a holi again.. haha fmr the 28dec to 1 jan... u guys think i shd go?...cos i havent even did revision and looked at my sec3 bks lor... so slack this holi... then if i go i would sure be so so crazy abt holidaying that i might "lose interest" in studies and not concentrate well..haiz.. but i wanna relax mann... cos next yr might not be even goin for a holi... haiz. sec3 marhz... must study hard... i alwayz have this feeling that contradicts what i said... here i state i wanna study hard then there i go out and play, shop, hang out with frens, come online... what is this mann... i dunch know myself tt well i guess or maybe its takes CONTROL... and my mind lacks enuff perception abt that word... hahaha... maybe i shd study that word closely... haiz.. i m feeling super stressed now.. cos i didnt do much during the holi... do u guys think i can catch up when sch starts?... i hope so... so afraid mann.. so perhaps i should not go to hk and hai nan islands during this period of time... stay at home and prepare for sch starts dun let my heart "flutter" ahhahaa... yeappz, i guess i must start concentrating... havent even finish my art proj yet lor... so sicko... i really hate hw during holis... "strapps" me down.. frm freedom i m supposed to have during holis... haiz... wadever... why shd i care?... i know i think too much sometimes... hahaa...

okies...needa turn in early today as i said... cos tmr i would be goin out...!! haha relax shop and browse around the shops in town!!looking forward to it... yarh... oh wellz, i feel so nice after writing blogs... its so fun... anywayz, abt the trip on the 28... i think maybe... i dunch know larhz... but will make up my mind soon... haiya... i hate it when xmas comes sometimes cos it states tt sch is goin to start!!! and sometimes i hate tt... cos have to hand in hw larh..blah blah... wadever wadever...maybe tt why i shd convince myself to study now... or relax now... dunno lor. so confused.. my brain must be in a mess after all that...u know wad i mean?..ahahaha..okies.. i m feeeling super tired today... *yawns* goin offline soon so see ya guys soon yar?... will let ya guys know the decision i made whether to go or not!!! =)

~purpla gal~ *goodbye* hope tt tmr will be enjoyable and fun-filled! *prays hard - waiting for a reply*

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Saturday, December 20, 2003

hhaha... so let me tok abt wad i did today...was a bit of a "refresher" cos i actualli planned a whole long schedule of holiday hw thingy and i ended up shopping instead!..oh my! now i m so freaking out over how to complete my work in time..ahaha.. so yeappz, as usual i woke up at abt 930 today and i was pract. lazing around the hse for the entire morning.. hahah.. then in the afternoon i planned to do some lit reading but i didnt... after a fruity lunch, i went to take a s'pposedly called "walk" around toa payoh central but who knowZ?i ended up buying a whole lot of clothes and "nick nagz". ahhaa by time it was already 430 so went home and bathe...then at 6, i went to the spec shop to choose my new specs and check my eyes... haha i had a hard decision to make when it comes to choosing stuff... well, in the end jus chose something really different!! ahhaha surprise! haha but sad thing to say the degree for my eyes went up a lot... now i m really a "captain hook" liaoz... right side 600 left side 75... wad the .... mann... its so shocking... went up like 100 in one yr... so got a scolding frm dad not really scolding but warning and i cant come online tt often frm now... cos my eyes... will get worse... haiz... looking forward to growing up so i can do LASIK.. hahaha its less troublesome after u get it done... and i need not worry tt much... anywayz, i really do have to take care of my eyes...really serious now... no joke... 600... gosh...

anywayz, i *pray* tt i will know how to take care of my eyes and be much more careful in the way i treat my eyes... haha.. okies... *jess* has jus come online now... so toking to her... ahhaa... oh wells, truthfully, she is the only person that helps me get away frm all my troubles... and let me feel occupied. thankew! now i feel like posting some meaningful statements jus to portray how i feel...deep down inside my heart...

~the trouble with love is.. it can tear u up inside.. make ur heart believe a lie, it's stronger than ur pride
~we alwayz adore the ones who ignore us but ignore the ones who adore us

done! extracted this frm my other blog... yeappz. so that's it im off! cyaz.

~purple gal~

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Friday, December 19, 2003

hey guys was feeling kinda depressed yesterday but feeling a bit better now. really have millions of thanks to the people who have "heard me out" and help me overcome my little probs... *big huggs and a sincere thankew to steffi*, jess* and jinjin* hahaha thankew so so much! truthfully, i dunn want pple to know that i have a private blog but i do have to be honest. so well, as some of u guys have guessed i do have one! but as mentioned i only give this url to some trusted frens so pls dunn bug me or wadsoever for me to give u my url cos i hope u wld understand it is entirely PRIVATE... hope u respect my decision..=) thks.

okie now down to wad i have done today!... was so vexed yesterday that i decided to go shopping today! hahaa..went out with my mum for like 5 hours and we shopped till we drop but we wanted to continue shopping but my mum was feeling really sick so we have to come home instead! oh wells, i bot only one black skirt hahah laugh all u want... and some happy house stuff... hahaa...as i said...shopping really does wonders...hahah made me forget all those sad memories..oh well... i rather not tok abt it now...

anywayz, i really must thank GOD cos my prayers did come true! and i hope tmr would be a great day for me...as usual i will be like a hermit... hahaha...staying at home doin some holi hw... and maybe reading the lit bk... argh... lit...again?!?! aiya, i guess as long as i chose the subject, i have to go on strive hard for it!! will alwayz remember wad i promised ms chye...hahhaa... okies i m off... gonna do some surfing for nice xmas card... hahhaa... any recommendations of gd sites?... ahhaha alrites, i think i would be turning in early todae so tata in advance! =))

~purple gal~ *trying to smile-give me time*

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Wednesday, December 17, 2003

youuuwhooo! im here again to update! last nite came online but blogger was experienceing some probs.. so hahah didnt get to update. lolx! anywayz, i m kinda happy yest... cos i acheived alot by doin some holi hw and reading a book...hahhahaat least i did something during the holis! hahah so yeap my plan for today is already fixed... kinda boring tho'- i m goin to watch shows in the morning then early afternoon gonna do some holi hw. yeappz..then frm 5 to 7 i have tuition so i m kinda packed liaoz... then at nite goin granny's hse at butterfly ave-potong pasir there eat dinner and chat maybe... then by time i arrive home it will be 830 alreadi so frm 830-10 or 1030 i will watch my tv prog again... hahaha armed reaction 3 is super super nice mann..channel u 9pm every weekdays!! hahaaha today's epi is so exciting and thrilling so i wont miss it... then maybe 1030 go and bathe for a while then come online...yeapps... that's abt my plan for today...ahahahaa... i think i m goin to slack again lor...so ahhahaa wont commit myself to do anything serious at the moment!

okie so now i m feeling rather joyful cos gonna meet my fren soon-jess and many more!! hahahaa then go out and havoc le...hahaha so *jess* remember bring ure pix frm aust on tt day then i bring mine frm china!! hahahaa then can chat abt the place ahhaha anad blah blah blah..i guess it would be damn fun lolx! looking forward to seee you guys!! oh wells, for now, i think i m goin to watch tv liaoz...hahahhaa.. wonder how's jacq. doin in her church camp now... i dun even know if she went lors. ahhahaa... hope she still can sms me lahz. i m feeling super bored/dead/rotting at home!! aiyohz, wad a loooong holiday it is i guess...tortue too!...so kinda look forward when school starts...okok!
needa go now! cyaZ pPle! have a nice day!!

~purple gal~ *prays*-i hope everyday will be meaningful to me and i hope i can make use of it well-

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Monday, December 15, 2003

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Sunday, December 14, 2003

= super bad mood =oh well its because of some pple again... i dun wanna say their names out otherwise they will sure bash me up... haix...i kept sighing the whole day cos i think i m gonna lose three frens... okie this is a very truthful entry so no scoffings and criticizing yar? thankew.

okie i really dunno if i m the cause of everything or wad but i am willing to apologise for wad i have done wrong. i hope that whoever who wants to criticize me will tell me straight in the face or discreetly but not to someone else which is so indirect. i dun think anyone likes to be criticized and be condemned in front of a third party who might also be ure fren. haix...okie lemme vent out all my angry that i have been suppressing frm yest. i think i made the wrong choice in the first place. shouldnt have been anywhere or said anything. should have left things untouched and be a loner. its so much better i guess. wadever the case i m utterly disappointed with some pple... not really blaming them or scolding them but..its just that...!!! argh... i hate to be stuck in the middle and be blamed for wad i have not done!! its so infuriating!okok *control my emotions* i dun wanna hurt anyone or blame anyone. so i jus have to suppress my anger. well, i tired very hard to make peace with them...tried to accomodate but i dun think its my prob. maybe part of it is but haix... i hope my email to someone will resolve this. this email contains lotsa things i wanted to say long ago but didnt cos of friendship. somebosy might not take it seriously but i dun care. as long as i have tried and done my part i think its alrite. leave everything to fate...

maybe all these are bitter past memories and i hope for a gd ending. sorrie to all those whom i have indirectly cause misunderstandings or wadever... *whew* finally...done. poured out not everything but partly.

okies...such a chim entry rite?...hahah hidden meanings...esp for somebody who loves lit... ahahha...go read and understand every line...okok i m off...goin to sit and straighten my thoughts out first...or maybe watch a relaxing show to cool off...

~purple gal~ *a lonely tune in winter by the frozen lake* -liveless,meaningless-

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

Friday, December 12, 2003

wah...today's weather is so gd. haix but all my holiday hw is spoiling the holidaying atmosphere lehz... aep(art), hcl(higher chin-60 ci yu) and lotsa tuition hw...wad is this mann... immediately after i came back still have to go tuition some more wad a spoiler. haix...anyway, i am sitting here forcing myself to memorise my hcl and at the same time do my blog... haha dun laugh its true. anywayz, feeling kinda burdened down by hw... jus hope next yr wont be a rushy yr...sec3...omg. i m goin to die lor... so pressurised. oh well, looking forward to meeting jacqueline, sojini and daniel...haha...i guess it might be super fun... so hope all of u guys can make it lah... oh rite, i jus finished developing the photos frm china...it turned out to be not too bad...some kinda dark and blurry but not bad...haha... maybe the day we meet then i will show u guys...u guys must also bring okie? ahaha...

alrites, i better get back to studying. oh yar b4 tt i must say smthg..haha dunno why my dad in such a gd mood then brought us to restaurant for lunch and its near daniel's office there lor... ahha..then i sms jacqueline and she wanted me to go look for him...haha...jus to tell jac. tt i didnt. sorrie... hahaa..dun c why i have too lor. haha...

okok stop craping now. i m off!! will update soon when i come back!
~purple gal~

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

hey hey i m back!! china is so fun!!! love it like anything...got so cheap and good stuff to buy lor. bought like tons of nike and sports stuff...got a wallet too...esprit one damn cheap there but its real one lah...anywayz, i enjoyed myself throughly...esp. last two days...hahaha...*dunn let ya know y* :P dun think wai wai think straight lor. hahaa okie... made a few frens during this trip ahhaa all of them super fun pals lor...haha..then on board the plane when we come back we tok like siaoz... but then not a lot la...cos so tired. hahaa

actualli, i wanna write each day's prog during my trip lor but too long already so nvm..hahha now i m feeling super hyper and happy like anything...toking to jacqueline hahaa..she's super farni lehz...sometimes i feel damn chilled up by her...hahaa... okie pple will say i m lame rite? aiyoh...wadever lah. hahaa...picked some strawberries too... frm china...fun but super dirty...wad an experience mann..but the weather in some places was super cold lor... i wore so many layers then become like snowball like that so massive mann.

haix, feel like goin back china again...so fun and exciting there... hahaa here now i m rotting away online nobody to tok to haix... okies, maybe i shd called jini* later haha..like wad jacq* did haha..oh wells, see ya guys then...long entry mann...

~purple gal~ *sk*

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

Monday, December 01, 2003

blogger is stoopid and very annoying. or maybe my comp is...seem to have a problem in seeing my tem-plate on my comp.. What's wrong mann...argh...trying hard to see but dun seem to be able to//how? aiyoh..i need help liaoz. anywayz, i hate my lap top. so idiotic. always hangs and breaksdown. wad is this mann... anyway, i m in a happy and cheery mood today so i wont write any depressing phrases...

and thankew to all who have tagged...i cant tag back cos of my spoilt comp. okies, see ya gotta rest well for tmr's big day!! Japan and china here i come!! *zoomm* ahhaa feeling damn hyper. band was damn fun too today..only me,dee and noelle. ahhaa.. wad a nice "last band practise" thanks evryone who made my day! =)

~purple gal~ *waves* cyaz when i come back. will not be blogging nimore until 11th dec. then i m goin off again! ahha byeee *flying kiss* ahaha...siaoz already...

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;