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Sunday, August 27, 2006

POEM dedicated to my dear SASA as well as SEAFOOD CLAN:

When all is lost,
Darkness looms
But dont be afraid
For it’ll be over soon

Look at the sun
How bright it shines
The birds, the trees,
And friends who whine

Tough life gets,
But dun be sad,
After a pat on the back
Get up,
Walk on,
and use that ounce of strength
For very soon, u'll realise that it’ll be gone

Time heals all wounds wont it?

SASA: i really hope u read this... remember that no matter what, i still have 1000000% confidence in you and everyone else supports u too! dun be sad ok? i know its hard, but i believe u can get over this tough part and be the happy sasa i know. try. TRY to cheer up ok? i really hope i can be there in HK with u.. but since i cant, i will pray for you everyday. stay happy and take good care. hope to see you really soon. and yes, i will SUPPORT u forever.

miss ya loads.

~sukai
" when life gets crazy, dont be stumped, calm your nerves and all is done "

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Monday, August 21, 2006

i wish i wish. i wish all the evil guys who are either flirts or have hurt my sister and dear fren or any gal ard in one way of another to go to extinction immediately! they suck, take u for granted and then stab u and leave u alone to rot in ur world of misery. what is the world coming to? oh gross. sometimes im become so pessimistic about guys that i jus cant bear to tell him* that im feeling in such a way. insecurities? oh wadever u claim that to be. jus that ive seen to many of my frens being hurt. yeah. and guys think they've done no wrong. sometimes i wonder why why. why did cupid create this thg called love? when love comprises of ninety percent helplessness and ten percent frustrations? ironic isnt it?

oh well. i have loads to rant about but i dun have the time. and someone jus made me very angry. might be trivial to u guys out there. but hmph. the fact is, i am angry. only someone can make me happy now which is my dear seafood gang. haiix. tmr have test and spa and im still stuck in this well of dark thoughts and sighing for my best fren. no mood to mug. yeah. when will my posts ever get happier and brighter? seems so gloomy all these days.

well.. like px says.. miracles only happen in dreams. prev i dun agree. but now i do. its never gonna happen. to us gals. yeah. so no point gg on.

*i need full concentration*

~kaii when will i see a smile again?

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

"there are no attractive or repulsive forces between gas particles and they assume negligible volume compared to the volume of the gas container"

BRILLANTO. my sentiments exactly. i wish i wish my life could be somewhat like gas molecules... need not be tied down to so many worries and stress in life. yet i know, if one day i really can be so carefree, life may not be as meaninggul as it is now.. have been trying so hard to cram all the chem SPA pointers into my undersized brain which is clearly on the verge of bursting. argh, still have physics DAQ to complete and im not even awake. "what's left of me is skin and bones, and flesh that make no more or less without the human soul" -- wah. i actually came up with that phrase. hahaha i think i was jus trying to be chim la. so ignore me folks!

anw, monday was good. dunn really know why but i felt good. then organic chem lecture was conducted in lightning speed that i dun feel insulated at all. so yeah. think im gg to flunk chem. blahhh. nvm. shall remain optimistic about my condition here. ahhaha.. then tues was bad. not only cos of someone but cos of studies again. like again. JC life is a heap of stress! argh. i really wanna go mongolia and scream my lungs out on top of some nice misty mountain. anyone interested?! grr.. today's worse. cos of someone again. but nvm, shall not dwell since i have learnt the core of PEIXUAN's revised collision theory that even molecules that collide might not result in a reaction. *nods*

Hahhs. can see that i sound really sleepy right? yep. im gonna not do physics and jus flop. my bed rawks. i hope to stick to it for life. yes. i have decided to marry my bed.

~sukaii psychotic mood -- rarrrhh

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Friday, August 11, 2006

bleah. the horoscope was right. im drifting. drifting away from studies as well as everything. argh. cant really concentrate.. why why why!! oh well. i think i look forward to another break. a long break this time. yeah cant wait for dec holi.. then can finally relax. although i dun think i will be able to. haix. life's stressful aint it? anyway, i jus attempted to complete my chem tutorial on kinetics and guess wad. i really left a lotta blanks. argh. internet and msn are so much of a distraction!!! no.. maybe i should put it in a nicer way, i get distracted very easily. and yes, in order for me not to fail my promos or smthg, i really gotta buck up! next week there's the dreaded chem spa on energetics thg thg and econs essay test. goodness grief! i dun even have time to complete my tutotrials not to mention mug for tests! urgh.

yeah. yesterday was pretty happy! cos i talked to some farnie pple. hahaha one day before stressful schools starts and before it ends again aburptly for the weekends, its really great to be entertained. X) thanks bryan! u really rawked my world. (dunno if u read this, think u dun right?) hahahah wadever the case, thanks to wilson again too. plus everyone who made my day! as for today(fri i mean) not really as happy as yesterday cos piles of homeworking growing roots on my table. yarh. trying to complete them but cant seem to get rid of the roots u know. so BAAHH. gross is all i can say. and divine intervention please! i needa pass my promos. yesh. PASS.

alrights. really hope happy doctor bryan can cure me of my stress which is mostly self induced? nahhs. think its all the smart pple in school making me stress. argh. DOCTOR!!! hahaha i need help X) aiya. i really need a dosage of laughter frm u to keep myself going so if u really read this or smthg, i wan an appointment! hahahaha X) and yes, i will save money to bake u a HUGE COOKIE. X) niwae, thanks alot for cheering my dayy.

kkae, too tired to even blink. zzz soon =) nighto everyone! or rather, mornings!
hehh

~kaii ice princess?

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Tuesday, August 08, 2006

my life is screwed. sometimes i think being single is so good. at least it frees u of any worries and unhappiness.. anyway, im starting to think that im loving him more and more so maybe i will relent. yeah. heart really aches to ignore him. so i guess... i shall be forgiving and talk to him again. as for the other someone. nahhs. giving up. no point waiting lyke wad jess said. and since i have him alr.. i shouldnt think of anyone else right? *maybe for the time being* but yarh. i really dunno why im feeling in such a weird way.. lyke i know i love him but i also like him oh man. so confusing. even love guru mei sum also dunno wad to say right. keep asking me to think who is the one i like best. so frustrating. i dun feel like thinking. these days cos of rhp probs so havent been really focusing on work. grr. urgh. how. stress !!

anw, i really hope can meet up with Jess again! X) she makes me happy. and wilson too.. he's my happy doc.(i dunno if he reads this but pls tag if u do) hahhha.. nowadays... i think rshp is overwhelming my life. which is so wrong. my national day resolution is to make studies priority and rshp next. or maybe frens next. hahahaha. hope i can! *encourage me pple..

tt's all for now folks! gtg.. and happy national dayy

~purple gal love is like the sea

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Friday, August 04, 2006

sighs. i think heaven loves to make fun of pple. sometimes loving someone is so tiring. yeah.. some problems with him. and yes. i created more problems for myself cos i realised.. i have feelings for another someone. know that's bad but... cant help it. love is a farnie thg. jus too bad that the other someone has someone alr. so i guess i shd be faithful to my someone. yeah. confusing ah for those who dunch know anythg. anyway, my life's in a huge mess. first is the mountain of hw growing, and piles of revision undone. stress. no time study for promos la pls. and yarh. jus pray God can help. i really call for divine intervention. secondly its abt them* yeah. 2 guys, u know guys jus give me tons of headache. and my life is screwd cos of tt partitally. oh well... blame myself for being in love. yet sometimes.. being in love is such a wonderful thg. so ironic hurh... haiix. this is jus one of the biggest ironies in life.

oh well. i think i shdnt think of both of them now. trying nt to. but i dun think i can. its lyke i know if he ever sees this.. there goes our rshp. but lucky he doesnt come online nowadays. haix. if there was only a better solution.. and if guys could be more understanding and less hua xin. the world would be a wonderful place and we women can live in peace.

guess... i jus gtta let fate do the work. as for him.. i shall ignore him for 1 wk. lemme cool off as well. yeah so if u* ever read this. im sorry. i jus cant accept wad u have done so jus shoo off and give me a break. i need a breather. its too tiring..

kae i gtg. mountains of hw rmb.. yuppers. hope the next entry wld be me sounding happy.

*purple gal~ double stab. that hurts

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