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Friday, September 19, 2008

ENTIRELY FTW-ED!

15sept
called up stta to double check her flight details in the morning... the woman who was on the phone sounded super unsure la! i was asking.. then she told me.. "they're still in shanghai?" so i asked "but i was told that they will be back today.. could u help me check?" then she went to check! and came back telling me her flight was on 16sept instead. i was like WAD?! then she corrected herself and said 15sept.. zzzso this was the beginning of trouble.. went down to the airport feeling excited but came back empty handed cos apparently.. we only managed to catch sun bei bei and eddy who is really superrr nice team manager. joan managed to get his contact too which is HIPEEE DOOLE cos it maked everything easier now.. lol.. and since our elusive tw doesnt really have time to respond to emails... (i bet she doesnt know wad to say) LOL! it'll be good to go thro the manager:) so yay! reached home super late at abt 11plus... then we had some ftwfc meeting. as usual.

17sept
wah.. second failed attempt to catch ftw! apparently it was the correct day, correct timing but perhaps incorrect terminal?!?! i was like quite excited when eddy smsed joan saying that she reached... but reached where?!? then the msg came and made us DIAOOO. she's on cab back to stta alr. boohoo.. we thought we had no chance but then.. requested to meet tw for 10 to 15mins at stta... so eddy kinda helped us arranged! YAY! screamed when eddy said TW said OK! wahahhaha.. and then took mich's car down to stta.

spotted her spikey hair as tw peered out frm the glass door.. haha that cute action -- look sideways thro the hole btw the door then push open the door was AHHH! melts. hahaha. then she came out. we were super stunned! and she was too!! cos so many pple!! then joan wanted to let her sign fotos firsT! but so weird... cos immediately sign photos abit funny. so i asked joan say smthg!!! hahaha then joan asked abt her flight and told her we actually went down early. then she signed the stuff. OMG as she signed the stuff.. i asked her abt pandan cake and she said it was rather good and *smiled shyly* then i was telling her abt the SG "MEI SHI" we bought for her and SHE WAS GIVING ME THAT "HAHAHA.. yar im deprived of sg food" kinda look! oMG and she smiled so sweetly... which made me melt further.. LOL! i made her smile! YAHOO! hahaha! and then snap snap photo taking.. told her that i actually send her fotos but was wondering if she received.. she ask me back "shi ni ji gei wo de ma?" then i replied "MM.. wo shi sukai" then she was like telling me she didnt reply cos she looked at it during the competition so no time to reply.. jus got time to see.. then i told her.. i understand =] and tadahhh she looked into my cam and smiled sweetly! LOL... YEAH! then cos i kept thinking of wad i shud ask or say to her so joan and i stepped one side allowed other fans to take photos first.. then joan asked abt her next competition and My RXN WAS... HUGGEEEEEEEEEE.. she said "ying gai shi de guo de ba" THEN I WAS LIKE OUTBURST!! "YES YES YES!!!!!" then she looked at me with fascination and LAUGHED at me like i was some... comedian or smthg!!! cos it was indeed super malu.. =X but yea i told her why.. and told her i would go down support her! her reply was "hao ah" then SMILE shyly! lol... then cant rmb wad followed but we kinda took grp photo and she made the PEACE SIGN! WAHHSEHH... sooo cute!!!!

then after she went back up... Yuegu came down next cos jiawei nt in... so cant entertain us.. LOl.. super funny. YUEGU IS DAMN ENTHU AND HIGH LA.. i seriously think i might fall in love with her.. as..... she's also... a SIAO WOMAN! hahaha!!! she's mad. when she took foto with me.. her armwas liek grabbing my waist...i was like W..A..DDD!!! hahaha! then i asked abt whether she's gg to play for german open! and she was like... "club"? then i said nooo. she asked again "open?" then i was like YEA! then she said "HUI!" and i SAID OHHHH im gg over to support her! and wahhh her reaction was damn big!!! she used two hands, pointed to me and said"OKayy, wo hui ji de ni!" WAHHH!!!! i was stunned! then joan said gt pple gg for macau one also! and SHE LIKE SAID "qing ni men chi PIZZA!" WAHHHHH table tennis "star" treat us to pizza!! if only tw said that. i would have like... VAPOURISED.. LOL!!! but yea.... WYG is rocker. she's super enthu! ahhaha i like!

19sept
FAREWELL MEETUPS with siaowomen and trio at cine! hahaha.. i tell u... i feel stupid. always getting tricked by siaowomen! HAHAH! aiyooo maybe i shud be more observant next time! first it was the cakes surprise.. then yest! it was this.... PRESENT SURPRISE!!! and like... i was super gandong... cos... they handmade the tee? and the card?! and rie's design of the monkey is super cute and meaningful --wukong with a tomato hat holding a dao and banana!! oh man... i love u guys.. thanks for making me feel so.... (i dunno) its jus the assurance and all the happy memories.. i love u guys... and of cos... we shall rmb our dec promise for "badminton" LOl! and.. of cos.. if can.. macau xD U GUYS WILL NEVER BE REPLACED! for now.... lets just make do with msn and webcamming ok? 2months plus will pass fast... WILL MISS U GUYS SO MUCH.. once again! thanks for everything.. so much that words cant describe how i feel.... altho we know each other for less than 1month,... everything we guys did tgt was super MEMORABLE... LOVE SHALL KEEP US GOING OK!

kinda rushed to meet up with trio! we raelly siaoed all the way and camwhored! hahaha! jessica was having some laffing spasm and every little thing she laffed! OMG. hahah! then we ate the udon thingy jess recommended and went to take neoprints! omg.. super cute neops! hahaha.. then we went out of cine and snapped fotos more more more! and then to heeren where jess gave me this SUPER NICE AND MEANINGFUL farewell gift! smthg like a foto album... all fotos of trio ever since the hk trip! its like so many years back but those were the days.. memories and everything started coming back when i was flipping thro.. how "ungalm" we looked and how "lousy" our "photoshop skills were.. everything part of growing up.. i miss the times but of cos look forward to better times ahead with trio! cos i know... its hard to find such TRUE frens.. and yes i cherish my two dearest! =] thanks jx for the present too! its the thought that counts ok!

sick so went back early... then kinda meeting online with ftw fc again. supposed to slp at 12am then became 1am. AHHH JOJO don kill me!! hahaa.. and yea now im officially down with flu. boohoo... so im gg to rest b4 i fly! =] this shud be the last entry typed in sg?!?! the next one to look forward to will be frm london! and yes... im looking forward somehow... but i'll still miss home and frens!

~sukai

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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

I NEED A DOCTOR TO CURE MY PREDEPARTURE SYNDROME...

help. this is bad. ive been crying to myself this week for dunno wad reason and i think its some form of escapism.. sigh... been pretty much looking forward to lse and going out of boring sg but there are some emotional burdens that somehow just wont go away.. been pondering abt how i can overcome such.. been trying to psyho myself to look at things more positively.. but how?it just wont go away. im super drained now... somehow im scared i think... and suddenly i realised that even as i spend time with my mum and frens this week... i feel its still nt enuff? like when i go out with my frens.. i think i shud be spending more time with my mum instd.. but when i go out with my mum.. i feel that hey maybe i shud spend more time with frens instd. its kinda leading to a probable mental breakdown? but yea.. im trying to jus hang on.. and think positive like wad jx says. and i know.. i can... i just hope on the day my parents fly back.. im nt gg to cry (cos i think i will) and i hope that my parents wont too.. esp my mum.... so just pray to God for everything to be fine and everyone to be truly happy and safe.. i would leave all these in HIS hands.. and hopefully... try and adapt quickly to the london culture and lifestyle.

on a lighter note... i would like to thank firstly MY TVB GANG pple... grace, hannah, jess, jx for this farewell dinner at tiong market hahaa! food was great, the company was marvellous and everything was just so last min but hey! thanks pple =] i appreciate the dinner even though time spent tgt was rather short!

and secondly! im sincerely thanking MY TOILET BOWL GANG, aka WEST TRAVELLERS aka... SIAOWOMEN frm ftwfc for SURPRISING ME on tw's supposedly arrival date. and yes.. i was stupid enuff to let u guys know i like cheesecake. hahaha boohoo. but anw! thanks for the so many cakes!!! and... weird biscuits? the whisky one.. wasnt really whisky u know! i think it seems ok.. but ohwell... i slept soundly.. so i wonder if its the effect of the biscuit or... isit cos im too tired that i kinda fainted. oh well... yea yest damn wasted cos tw changed flight last min. so she didnt come back and.. we kinda waited in vain. but anw.. it was a great night meeting ftwfc pple and the surprise cakes is loves =] thanks siaowomen!
must massconvo everyday when im in london ok... or i'll feel super depressed and.. weird:(

sigh. time passes so fast in sg cos u're with ur frens and family and everything familiar. but out there in london alone... will time pass that fast? =/

~sukai

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Thursday, September 11, 2008

PISSED.. VERYYY PISSED...!!!

I DONT UNDERSTAND. why is SHE considered as my BEST FREN when im getting to realise HOW SELFISH, HOW INCONSIDERATE, HOW SELF CENTERED and HOW SHE TAKES PPLE for granted. sheesh i was basically super pissed when she told me that she's gonna turn the room into a kitchen. yes. NOT HER ROOM. but ITS OUR SHARED ROOM! WTH. im sorry but i really wanted to )(*&^%$# all the way u know.. this is what she said (in a super heck care, im always right attitude)

HER SMS: "im bringing coffee maker there.. and toaster too"
MY reply: "eh coffee maker? i cant stand the smell of coffee in enclosed room leh"
HER REPLY: " I DONT CARE. I WILL NEED IT DURING EXAMS PERIOD" (FULLSTOP)
MY reply: "ok.. but i really cant stand the smell.. so i might swop with someone else or go to my other fren's room"
HER REPLY: "but u can open the windows right? the smell will go out, i hope"
(LIKE IF ITS COLD.. AND I OPEN WINDOWS... SHE MIGHT PROLLY WHINE LIKE SOME FREAKING PRINCESS AND SAY OOOO V COLD AHHH.. CAN CLOSE?? *ACT PITIFUL FACE*)

FISH! SHARKS! i was like... YAR YAR.. ur antics again. expect everyone to follow ur schedule.. expect everything to fit into ur LIFE! LIKE FISH OFF OK! ARGHH u cannot imagine how pissed i was. and worse still... we're basically taking the same flight to london. SHEESH. and wad else? wanna fly back with me somemore. GND... IM BENT ON FLYING WITH MY HC FREN. lol.. ask her stay outta my life. im sorry but wadever she did in the past made me think of her as such a negative person. so.. even if everyone thinks she's so good or wad.. i wont. i wont be fooled. she has told too many lies. excuses. and wad i cant stand is her attitude. taking everyone for granted. SMS U.. u must reply. u sms her.. SHE MIA.. then say.. OHHH phone no batt. phone spoil. SHIT man!

sorry. i need to vent my anger. i cant stand it anymore. and yes. if need be. i will CUT ALL TIES WITH THIS FREAKING WOMAN. if it means to lose all my JC frens. cos ironically we're frm the same clique. sorry. i JUST CANT STAND U.

thanks JX and NANA dear.. for hearing me out... i shall continue to fa xie to u guys tonight! for now... i need to go tidy cupboard! and I LOVE ALEXIE! okie my new bestie who's frm hc, taking same course, staying same hostel! =] thanks for letting me go to ur room when.. MINE IS FILLED WITH TOXIC GASES.

~sukai

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Tuesday, September 09, 2008

YAYYYYYYYY!

daddy is finally back frm like a trip to Beijing and i believe Shanghai?! SHEESH talking abt Shanghai... IM SUFFERING FRM THE URGE TO GO FLY THERE on the pretext of meeting my dad but actually is to go see FTW! OMG. so evil but yar.. that thought vanished cos i know my mum would prolly scream and say im "FENG" ler! LOl!!! hahaha.. oh right... dad gave me such a huge surprise today! cos he told me he's jus getting one shirt for me but ended up.. WAHHHH half his pathetic luggage was filled with my stuff!! and im so touched.. ZZZ made me feel quite guilty for... quarrelling with him few weeks back b4 he flew..ARGH.. sorry dad..

anyway! im so happyyy! i gt 2 new table tennis bats now! and 12pingpong balls so that i can bring to london! yep im cfm chop joining table tennis for cca! since i gt alot time...assuming the time table prev i posted was accurate~ LOL! and yessshh daddy bought this cute YING YING JACKET for me! LOl! and another oly jacket with the logo! im aiming to bring some to let tw sign if i see her.. HAHAH!!! =P wear then ask her sign rite.. omg... so pervertish. LOL. but yar my cousin said that..GOSH. joan will prolly stone me.. nana will prob use me for her experiments and rie will prob DAO me.. yes knife me. LOL ahhaha! erhh and yep jus nice when saumun is back with stuff for exchange prog tmr (ahem only u guys know wad's this) my dad bought me another HDD 320GB... in addition to the one i have 160GB. woahh enuff ler:) super contented! and happy!! WHEE!!

okie dokie.. cant wait for tmr!!! siao tgt! LOL! SAU MUN ROCKS! a big hug and thanks to her for being such a pro pro correspondent in KL! =] we love u mun! so basically ftw knows u, ailing, joan, me,rie! YAHOOO! dont be overly high hor. lac lac.

~sukai

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Monday, September 08, 2008

I LOVE MY DARLINGS!

heh... Joan the TOMATO, Nana the BANANA and Rie the DAO! hee... its so weird to think that ftw actually made us so close.. hahaha and yes i agree with my DARLING JOANNY that we were best friends in our past lives.. prolly at mental hospital! LOL... i can talk to them for hours yet the convo is still alive and CRAPPY! LOl! and im really gonna miss this bunch of siaowomen when im in london so hey siaosiaos pls msn me or sms me or callme! thanks joanny for wasting ur phone bill today and listening to me ramble XD i HEART U GUYS!

~sukai

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Friday, September 05, 2008

ALL ABOUT FENG TIAN WEI!

29aug
met joan first at tpy library then rieyee before we headed down to stta to ask abt 30aug stuff cos everyone seems to be clueless abt the 30aug event and even though i called up.. wad the receptionist told me was rather brief but luckily the event was confirmed.. then we met jiayi first and thereafter walked over to stta. when we first reached.. joan and rie were like showing me and jiayi the 2possible tw's room cos the windows were opened and tw once said in the omy interview that she doesnt like to switch on air con! LOL.. but good deduction! then we kinda waited near the side door for her but still no sign of anyone! suddenly someone opened the door leading to the dorm room and i got such a shock cos gao ning came out! then he went to buy drinks... and walked back in.. he looked super shag and sweaty so we were thinking perhaps tw has trainings too.. then we walked around eyeing the area and saw yang zi also with some aunty.. if i didnt rmb wrongly! then wang yue gu came back and we approached her asking her to jiayou first then... asking abt where is tw! LOL. U KNOW WAD SHE ACTUALLY SAID? she asked us to shout for her... cos she only stays upstairs.. and then WYG pointed to the exact room we had been staring into... OMG. so finally we know where was her room! LOL.. then WE DID SUPER MALU things!!!! gosh... i will never forget how malu... we started throwing paper balls with words(i shall not reveal) and they landed everywhere else but not tw's room. HOW NICE. and we made a few passerby help us collect the stuck paper balls which i seriously think.. they must be wondering... why did our paper balls land in such weird places! like... above the door thingy. OMG. hahaha!! then suddenly.. out of desperation.. joan decided to just scream her name! and OMG.. she screamed without even warning us!!! but still no response! ZZZ i felt like.. some silly person there but it was pretty exciting! hahaha!! so.. finally after so many futile unglam attempts... we decided to jus go ask and wait at the receptionist area. and GUESS WAD! we saw GAO NING sitting at the receptionist place.. and wang yue gu, LI JIA WEI walking into the office! so joan chiong-ed in and ask.. but they seem to have no idea of 30aug event! then gao ning suggested to look for tw! i was likE.. @.@ and we just pushed the door open and SAW.. AHEM SOME SHORT HAIR LADY.. WALKING towards us and joan chionged again AND BINGO! so luckyyy it was her! LOL... she was quite stunned and i must say.. we really gave her a shock cos... we assumed that the tw's blog and facebook was real so joan started telling her alot of fc stuff and asked abt her bday thingy. LOL... and cos it was really pitch darkness.. i couldnt see much... LOL. but i did intro myself in a weird way. OMG. hahaha! then she had to go for meeting.. so she jus walked in and disappeared. we wanted to wait for her... but it was a lucky thing we didnt wait cos after the thing we realised that the meeting was abt the stta dispute thingy... so i guess they must be feeling pretty bad... so luckily we left.

and i was still moaning abt why didnt i grab the chance to let her sign and take foto... but luckily... AHEM... i had so much good memorable experiences with her since so... the regretting kinda faded. LOL.

30aug
wahhaha! this is so qiao! cos when walking to stta yest i suddenly overheard frm the radio some news abt amk function that only the first 100ppls are entitled to get their autographs so being kiasu... i was super determined to like be the first few cos got to know that some pple might be queuing overnight! LOl!! and i woke up at 6am and went down by 720! and waited for joan to come at 730 but ntuc not open yet.. so we waited! then finally!!! we went in at 8am sharp and asked the person if we can start queuing! OMG.. its pretty malu.. cos we brought so much stuff to do our boards!!! super last min but the end product was super nice !! wahahha!! yeahh then more fc pple came and we had fun making boards tgt! and then reporters came and gosh... luckily i wasnt the first in line so poor joan tio all the questions!! LOL!!! =P and yar that explains why our foto was everywhere!!! alamak. malu. >.<

so since joan me and rie were like 1st 2nd and 3rd, we got like alot of attention..GOOD AND BAD LA.. good cos it publicised and made our fc OFFICIAL..bad cos... our unglam faces all over sg! LOL... but finally when tw and the rest came... I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS WORTHWHILE! and im glad we were the first few! hahaha!! joan went on stage first and asked tw to write and sign on her pink board! then thereafter i went on stage and somehow we were all stuck to ftw like some magnet!!! then choke up the queue cos li jia wei and wang yue gu ended up having nthg to sign!! tw had to sign so many so LJW and WYG kept staring in space.. waiting.. i felt super bad.. and kinda guilty.. luckily joan continued talking to LJW but still she was kinda dao? and daydreaming! LOL then finally cos too many things for tw... the person in charge asked one person to stay on stage and wait AND AHEM.. i was the lucky one?!?! LOl!!! then i stood in front of tw.. and started talking and asking her ques like some maching gun!!! and asked her to look into my cam for foto!!! WAHAHAHAH!!! and then she kept smiling and thanking me after that! then after she finished signing all i was like some aunty trying to lug everything down! then i walked pass WYG so decided to say xie xie to her! and she was SUPER NICE to say XIE XIE NI and SMILE super sincerely! faints... felt even more guilty. argghh.

then when the event was abt to end.. there was this flower presentation ceremony... and WE SCREAM TIAN WEI!! then asked her look into my cam! so tadahhhh NICE SHOT again! LOl.. and finally.. we did quite siao stuff! while she was walking we sang HAPPY BDAY SONG TO HER cos her bday was on 31aug!! she was superrrr touched i can see... waving to us, bowing slighty and like thking us!!! and yar.. we chased all the way to carpark.. but no used.. didnt have chance to take foto with her.. quite sad...

31aug

AHHAHAH went down to stta again cos tw said if she could make it she'll meet us! so we quickly chionged our presents at tpy library then RAN DOWN to stta cos we were late!! supposed to meet tw at 1pm but when we reached stta it was 130 alr! then luckily one nice uncle said tw's not in.. coming back at 2pm for meeting! so he asked us to wait! budden it started to rain and gosh.. the uncle was super nice to let us go into the training area to wait! but so unfortunately! the receptionist told us that we couldnt wait here cos some ministers were coming so she asked us to come back at a certain time!

and so...after much waiting.. and helping joan with her chem... @.@ and stoning.. LOL finally we went in and asked for tw! and this time the receptionist said she will contact her.. WAHH and then suddenly the receptionist told us.. tw is downstairs alr.. so we opened the door and GOT A RUDE SHOCK!!!! she was warming up!!!! LOL!!! and right in front of us!?!? LOL.. then we quickly siamed and waited for the receptionist to call her out! LOl.. so....... after that..... we told her abt the fc and passed her the presents! she was sooo happy and shocked that the fc had 600plus pple! hahaha! and she was quite shy too and nervous? cos her hands were trembling when she signed my foto!!! WHAHAH but the climax haven come yet.. it was when she took the nice foto i developed and she actually said: OO..PAI DE HEN HAO! WO KE YI YAO YI ZHANG MA? then she smiled shyly and paisehly. LOL! i was like.. KE YI AH!! wo ke yi send to u! =P then we kinda asked for her email.. so she wrote on joan's foto! LOL! then after that took solo pics.. and WHEE.. we were basically... too high to even talk properly!

4sept

HAHHAHA!!! u call this lucky or u call this fated? LOL! we went to ask stta and they actually told us their flight details! i got another heart attack when stta said they are leaving sg tonight! SO we went down to airport! met up with rie first... then we shared some chicken thingy at popeyes! talked alot! and stoned until 5plus! went down to row 11... to camp.. OMG.. then more pple came... like elsa, her fren. jiayi, her fren. LOL then we decided to buy pandan cake for ftw and ljw and ELSA GAVE US A SHOCKED when she said "ta dao ler" i was like who who?!? then she said LJW~ i was @.@ SERIOUS?!? where wher?!?!? omg.. and she was only like behind us? seriously... only 5steps away frm us. AHHH. so malu! lOl but no one dared to approach her so waited for her to actually be done with talking! SHE KEEPS TALKING ON THE FONE! LOL.. then finally i waited in front of her.. and spoke up.. LOL! SUPPOSED TO BE JIAYI but dunno why my mouth open then words started to come out! =X hahahaha then she was super surprised!! she asked why we know! then i said cos we asked stta! then joan told her we were here to support her! then she smiled and said thankew! hahaha felt that she wasnt that moody and dao that day.. so my imprsn kinda changed.. LOl.. and then took fotos! OMG.. i actually MADE THE ICE PRINCESS LJW SMILE?!? =P cos joan and rie took grp pic with her then before she could even smile.. i alr sadi 1,2,3 then put donw cam ler! OMG.. so fast until no time react! then i realised it was blur so she was like giving me that "AIYOOO liddat also can SMILE" then i said sorry sorryyy then she gave the "you super funny leh" that kinda smile! LOL.. paisehh la!

then suddenly... tw came! and cos there were alot of indian nationals so i seriously couldnt find her!!!! until suddenly elsa pointed!! wahhhsehh i chiongeedd when joan said GO GO GO! and i called tw first to test her response! SHE WAS LIKE.. OMG I DUNNO WAD KINDA EXPRSN!!! shocked + happpy + cheeky! she asked me "ni men zen me zai zhe li?!" OMG.. and then i told her we all here send her off... and gave her pandan cake.. so she said she super touched and thank us again!! and she asked how come we know i think! and we replied the same thing! LOL! then i asked her abt the email with fotos she wanted.. she said she received them and SHE WILL REPLY WHEN SHE"S FREE! AHHAHA!!! then she went to settle her stuff first.. after that! when she was ready to take foto i expected her to leave the pandan cake with her assistant but she actually took the cake with her! super nice and sweet of her and.. i went up cos no one dare to talk isit?!? i went to her and asked her if she ate pandan cake b4.. and her answer was like!!!! "mei you chi guo...(smile, pause) qi shi you hen duo sg food dou mei you chi guo...(cheeky smile, blush) OMG.. i was like.. ohhh... and then elsa and fren went to take foto asked her to sign first.. then i asked her look in cam and TADAHHH another nice foto! oh her PAI KIA POSE!! OMG.. classic la! cos she's super cool! LOL.. then..... joan,rie,me went to take! LOl! then after that she walked to her assistant.. and was waiting for smthg.. i was asking rie.. shud i ask her do a video recording? for all the fans? then rie said GO LA!!! so i went up.. and jus asked! OMG. climax climax... was fidgeting ard with my cam buttons to get to the video mode.. then before i pressed start.. i told her... hao le.. then she WAS SUPER BLUR!! she replied with a BLUR CUTE AWKWARD SMILE: "hao le ah?" then i still said "SHI!" then she started! LOL.. super cute la... she's such a blur woman.. LOL. but cute nonetheless! and then finally we walked her into the customs.. and waved thro the glassscreen goodbye! and i was giving her the GOOD SIGN and she acknowledged it!! OMG faints!

after that....................... we the crazy bunch of ftw fc pple got tgtat macs for dinner and thanks to all of them.. my stomach turned inside out. SUPER CRAPPY LA !!! i laffed so much!! LOl.. let the pictures do the talking!

~sukai

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

THAT WEIRD FEELING OF EMPTINESS...

somehow the weather is making me feel super gloomy and emo... and certain things that are deeemed trivial to other pple affected me quite alot so im becoming rather emo. yup.. its 18days to the date im flying off and now the feeling of emptiness is lingering and getting so much more intense.. i wanna really stop the time and re-live the 9months of holiday but i knw i cant. worst still.. i used to think that sg is so boring.. and tpy is jus sooo lifeless and i really dread living here but... somehow... isit because of ftw or isit because of the fact that i know im flying that im starting to miss tpy, miss sg, miss my frens and family all over again! i thought that feeling was dispelled after i overcame it the last time with support frm my dearest buddies.. but somehow its coming back...

AND...smthg is quite weird... im amused at the chemistry btw pple in FTW fc... and im wondering why am i so attached to FTW fc more than anything? ive known joan and rie for barely a week and yet somehow we three crazy girls are quite bonded i must say.. and that makes me kinda miss them... miss our stta outing times, miss our craziness with paper throwing and screaming! and... miss all the chionging, pasting stuff and drama msn convos, analysing faker's stuff and talking abt ftw like nobody's business.. im alr missing so much of these... aww.. suddenly i dun wanna get out of tpy, don wanna get out of sg because perhaps when i leave... i might really get too detached frm ftw's news and updates so perhaps i might lose interest? i hope not. and joan's having A's.. rie's having o's so perhaps they might be too busy to even entertain me online! =/ i hope not. but... joan, rie and i have decided that we shud jus go down to stta again when im back and perhaps relive the HAPPY CRAZY moments! yup... smthg to look forward to finally! =]

hahah i think im too busy to updates the exact details of chasing ftw so perhaps when im more free and more in the mood then i might attempt to write some juicy stuff we did! hahaha... and yes..i finally completed 2 photoboards to bring over to london and paste in my room! hahaha and a part of the board is filled with ftw! but OF COS I HAVEN FORGOTTEN TRIO, CRIS, SASA, ZAC, TWB pple, FUNG and NANCY! so yar.. maybe shall go take a pic of the boards and paste em here one day.. HAHAH. ONE DAY again =X im just too lazy to upload fotos. talking abt that.. i haven even watermarked my ftw fotos.. aRGH...

oh gosh.. im so dead... anyone realised smthg abt my past entries including this one? ... seems like every word i say or everything im writing i keep relating it to ftw issues! arghh... so this is called the post ftw syndrome? hahah weird.. i didnt even experienced such bad after effects even after i came back frm hk.. gosh..... maybe wad jx said was rite.. im crazy. LOL. so STOPPP!! come people tell me to stop!!

YAR .. and up till now i haven even touched or opened my ipod touch box!!! cos was too busy with ftw and uni stuff.. and my dad is kinda complaining that i buy and leave it there.. so waste money! ARGHh.. no time!!! but yea! i finalyl got the ipod touch ive always wanted! perhaps fri will be the day to open it.. after my dental appointment. AND YES! finally i received my driving licence!! the card one.. prev usiing the temporary one.. kinda lousyy. LOL.. yay! who wanna sit my car?

~sukai

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

Monday, September 01, 2008

FTW writing on the boards we made

i made this! she wrote msg too=]

AHHH... HOW MALU-ating!

ok.. i surrender... alot of people have been asking me if it was me on headlines of sunday times and yar.. some close frens even msged me abt it.. EARLY SUNDAY MORN... with BLOCK LETTERS TELLING ME MY FACE WAS ON SUNDAY TIMES MAIN SECTION HEADLINES.. hey! i got such a shock ok cos i expected certain form of fotos to be up but not.. like on headlines?!?! ok... and .. to think that i made it to the headlines in such an unglam look/pose... its... really SUPER EMBARASSING. but yea... alot happened for the past 4days or so and i kinda dunno where to start! so lets just start from the real beginning.

IN my prev entry, i wrote "it would really be a dream come true if i could meet FENG in person" and to think that a few days later, i rmb it was a THURS... i read in the papers that FENG, Li and wang are having a function at amk hub! 10 to 11am and i was like on CLOUD TEN?! if there was ever a cloud ten! LOL cos barely few days after i wrote that... my dream came true! and... something more MEMORABLE happened esp on 31aug... YES ... JUS NICE ON TW's BIRTHDAY... hahahaha but well.. i shant elaborate much here cos the fake ftw might be reading and snooping around my blog hoping to get smthg.. so i guess.... i'll update in another blog? when i have the time.. ! too busy helping out with fanclub stuff !! but yes! i really didnt make the wrong choice by choosing to go down the earliest altho my unglam face is splashed all over the papers and news... ZZZ but still... its worth cos i spent quite a far bit of time talking to tw on stage! HAHAH!!! not supposed to but the stta events person allowed me to talk and wait? OMG u cant imagine how happy i felt!

ok im too tired to continue.... and cos of the overload of stuff that happened... im also quite lazy to do a detailed update for now! so off i go!! looking forward to jogging tmr :) hahahah only joan and rie knows why:P

~sukai

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;