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Thursday, July 31, 2008

UPDATES UPDATES...

been super busy recently after i came back and so i decided to revive this blog here... past week has been rather well spent tidying up my room, buying 3yrs worth of london household stuff, getting my visa and i just did medical yesterday! whee! other than that, my driving went superrr well! if only my actualy practical test was tues.. faints! but im rather worried for parallel parking though.. cos i think i haven brushed up my skills sufficient to take the test.. plus under stress = scaryy! so hopefully i can get the hang of it soon.. and hopefully my performance for every lesson would be relatively stable... cos my driving can be so screwd one week then the next week.. so good. faints... LAST 4 lessons to my ACTUAL practical driving test on 21aug! WISH ME LUCK MAN!

been thinking alot for the past few days.. about whether ive spent my life well, about being contented and about friends... sometimes i really wonder why im so much closer to frens outside of school as compared to in sch.. be it in pri/sec/jc... somehow there's this imaginary barrier.. maybe cos i don really take the initiative to talk to them no matter how close.. not because i think i cant share stuff.. but its more like.. because of certain experiences in sec sch. ive really seen alot of close frens backstabbing people, hurting their other so called "close frens" and making use of them just for their so called "better notes" or "study methods". its plain childish i tell u. and i really cant stand other close frens turning a blind eye to such behaviour... because of such.. i really wonder whether that other fren of this person is really forgiving or is she like.. too blinded by whatever... i just cant stomach this. i wanted so much to break away frm this so called "clique" which ironically didnt even "click"... but u see..if i broke away, if i decided to be a lone ranger or at least limit myself to certain reliable frens... i would be labelled as some weird nut! so perhaps thats why im nt the kind of person who would even feel close to sch frens.. other than those who really know me inside out.. and i can say... frm pri sch until jc.. so far... i think only 3 persons can be labelled as really really good frens i cant trust... isit just my nature to be cynical? im not sure... ive seen too much of the ugly side of human nature... ive been thro some unforgettable experiences that still haunt me... i guess....its hard for me to really open up to them... o well..

but then. im really glad to have known a bunch of great lovely encouraging frens frm outside of sch.. all frm star chasing.. which is weird! i tot star chasing is supposed to be some superficial thing.. but somehow the bonds we forged, the experiences and fun tgt made us bond so well.... its really funny... cos my 4besties and 2 great buddies are all my star chasing mates! perhaps we gt more to talk abt.. but not really.... i don really msn jess everyday! but then........ our bond is like... "U DARE TO COME SEPARATE US... CHOPPER, PARANG, FRUIT KNIFE, SWORD... throwww!" hahaha.. its that kind of unspoken frenship..or rather sistership! i wonder if jess that LEE LEE feels the same but i really think its been a BLESSING to have her as my lovely sis!

and yea in school.. somehow.. i bond with seniors/juniors better than my own classmates or level mates.. weird right~! hahaha.. like suddenly.. i became close frens with ahem my two juniors! not to mention my lovely senior wilson daddy and b.y my advisor?!? hahaha! altho we don really talk alot now... but still.. i think.. there's like some form of unspoken frenship there... hahaha.. its different frm other frens la... i really cant describe.

but yea...kinda just "distanced" myself frm him*.. think we both don really expect that much frm each other now.... but im glad i told him* wad i wanted to say.. and im glad..he read it. soi guess... for now.. rship matters will be put on hold.. really happy now cos this burden has finally been released.. leaving things very much to fate now..

oh well.. before this blog gets to emo-fied.. i better STOP! hahaha! gnna chionggg my MR ! yipeee... my lovely ah pek! okie.. sounds wrong..but anyways! cheers to that ah pek's song 爱不疚... im so gnna learn it!...

~sukai

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

REPLIES to all MESSAGES:

sorry for the lagggg people! but yea... im here to reply the recent recent messages!

xuesi: hey! i i'll relink ya soon alright! cya on sat!

grace: thanks director for the "support" message! and ur help for my uni stuff.. appreciate it!!! heee.. lets face uni stuff tgt and go thro uni times tgt altho we're in diff countries! JIA YOU my buddy! AND OF COS! im ki siao nowww cos of MR! hahaha!!! i bet u too! hua chi-ing!!! stop denying!

wilson: yo daddy! long time since i called u that! hee.. yea the song is great! sure u tc too man! and keep in touch! meet up meet up soon la!

mel: YEAAAAAAAAAA im so gg to sing this song the next time we k tgt! wahahha!! thanks for helping my diggggggg for ahem yea u know la! hahahaha!!! thankew PR for the support msg too! ai si u and grace la!

jx: YEAAA!! lets go sing ba!!! but u.. so busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy where gt time for me... BOOHOO.. but yeaaaa pls ahve trio outing soon!!!

jess: LEE LEE!!! hahahaa!!!! u siao LEE LEE!!! hahaha!! aiyaaaaaaa when u can meetup for trio outing?!?!? LOL.. and when can u sing?!??! LOL~ today i jus ate ur fav ban mian!!!! whee!! blogggggg leh! don be like the.. CEO OF BLAH BLAH lidatt! hahahahaha~

~sukai

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

親朋勿友

歌手：傅穎鄧麗欣

作曲：吳國恩

填詞：高皓正

編曲：吳國恩

我與他重拾友誼　

相約也沒有不是

相信她　可惜不敢相信　

感情已終止

這樣難得再見面你未愛他別晚膳

我若還不癲　他朝還是會癲

*為何不跟他走　等我說分手會你親朋蜜友　

就算盲都可看到他跟你極好　我怎可比你好

試問誰拆散你　自問我可　跟他不見面

但是每夜有手機留言未被我撞破　都不願收線

*我與他純屬友誼　心癢昨日已根治

不愛他　冬天手執冰棒　一人吃一枝

會別離總會別離　也別要全沒顧忌

要是還不死心　心還是會死

Repeat*還我半點清白　戀愛運經已黑

如當我好朋友　可會為我收手

Repeat*見他不算做錯事　怎會破壞你好事

不愛他　怎麼偏偏感到　咀唇也羞恥

你若和他已別離　我又為何在妒忌

既是如此知己　他人沒法比　

不阻住你

WAHAHHAA! find the lyrics meaningful?!?! LOL i was super mesmerised by the lyrics la so curious to see who wrote it.. and TADAAAAAAAAA call me slow but.. yea.. its hz! ok.. ultra talented! cheers man!

~sukai

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

ONE SONG: what i wanna say to 2 different pple.

ITS CALLED 復刻回憶 aka ENGRAVED MEMORIES

she: 你還好嗎好久不見 又來這裡這個老店
　 後來的你喜歡了誰 我們聊聊天

he: 現在的你一樣美麗 至於愛情是個回憶
　她不愛我他離開妳愛會來就會去

@he: 在不同的城市努力偶然也會想想你
together: 這樣的我那樣的你要很久才相聚

together: 我們都沒說那遙遠的曾經我們也沒提那故事的原因
　青春的復刻回憶像一片雲沒法子抓在手裡?
　 我們的眼淚在複習著過去 我們的微笑是彼此的勇氣
　復刻的回憶是封掛號信多遠都可以找到你 @

together: 窗外的樹愛哭的風煩惱的我
he: 聰明的妳愛是什麼什麼人懂所以別難過

she: 心還痛嗎請忘了吧所謂幸福是個童話

together: 後來的我一切隨意所以沒關係

Repeat @

together: 午後的悶熱的窗外的一場大雨
　讓我們看見了以前的自己
　把時光倒轉回到那一季那年的夢他鄉的你

lala! im feeling so happy now.. cos............. someone made me smile! HEE XD u know who u are... so thankew!

~sukai

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

Monday, July 14, 2008

THIS LAST POST...

i realised that blogging is my life... but i dunno why, the words that i write here cant be too truthful sometimes.. maybe its cos too many people are going to read it so i really think this is making my type very superficial stuff... been super busy until i really feel that i need a break. certain things memorable happened during the weekend.. but i really think i will sound foolish if i write it out.. so.. im gg to just write in my my private blog.. yup... am only gg to share it with pple i know very well... as for this blog...

i might as well keep it as an online diary to track my HAPPENINGS in london.. and perhaps other happier stuff.. leaving all my emo emo blog entries to the private blog so... for now.. this blog is gg to be MIA..

~sukai

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;

Sunday, July 06, 2008

LOST FOR WORDS...

super busy and moody these days cos of uni stuff which is crazily FILLING up my life! pretty stressed out with driving too cos i missed one week of driving lesson. driving practical test is on 21aug somemore!!! everything to me is churning into one snowball and i think if i really dont rest properly and enjoy the remaining 2mths plus in sg, i'll suffer frm depression and extreme homesickness. BLEAH. hate this state im in!!!

have been reading in my free time and time really passes super fast! 9months of holis is just gg to be gone in a blink of an eye! i just wish i can fast forward the time sometimes.. esp for uni in london ALONE!!! that sense of scariness didnt kick in until pretty recently when i keep reading news abt murders in london. BLEAH! hahah! anyway, im really gg to miss everyone here... the warmth and siaoness and everything! hope u guys continue to flood me with sms-es and emails if not i'll feel super uneasy over there not receiving msgs and not replying!!! wahah undeniable SMS FREAK! oh yar.. to those peeps who dunno, i will retain my sg number also! so no probbie! wahhaha am i sounding kia-su?!?! LOL.

alrights.. still have one pile of things to be DONE!! and this week is crazily filled already... yea!! people who wanna date me pls do booking so that i can plan in advance!!! hopefully can meet all my close frens b4 i fly. BOOHOO. homesickness is kicking in AGAIN?!

~sukai

my.BEAUTIFUL DISASTER... ;