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Monday, April 23, 2007

BRILLANT BIRTHDAYYY-- 21 april !!!
(sorry for the laggyness! was uber busyy)

whee.. woke up at around 7am to get ready to go to school for pft! then went to check my phone as usual.. waaahh my inbox was flooded with 15msgs!!! faints!!! all happy birthday greetings from sec sch and jc frens!!! sooo sweet of them!!!! i shall name the top 15(not in any order)!
Jx, jessica, hsieh hui, geraldine, manda, huiqi, eugene, weixian, cheng hong, clarissa, saleena, him*, wilson, BY and xuesi! wooo. was alr quite high in the morning so the msg made me higher! thankew everyone!! and to those who have sent their warm well wishes!! sk heart you!!! hahaha..

although my birthday started with pft, which is sooo tiring, it was a consolation to think this was the FINAL year im taking it alr! so yayness! one thing, i managed to do a miraculous 18 inclined pull ups.. hmm.. i think it was because of some.. erhh nice tester!! hahahaa lol. but this time, im quite surprised that i didnt ache much when i got home! think maybe i didnt push myself to my max.. OPPS. but nvm.. after pft, daddy fetched me back to bathe b4 i met him* to celebrate my bday! went to a HUNAN CHIN restaurant for lunch and it was so ex!!! 80plus for 2 persons!!! faints.. and yeah. he paid.. so ok lorhh. hehee am i so evil?? OPPS. alrights then went around town to walk walk see see.. and then i wanted use the toilet so he waited for me outside. and guess wad!!! when i came out, i saw him holding this huge bag with a winnie the pooh's head sticking out... faints!!! i nearly screamed. then he passed me my present and i was like "ehh very heavy lehh, just did pft.. help me carryyy!!!" then he still come and kek me say wad i lousy... BOX HIM LORHH. yar yar.. so we kinda roamed the streets. he wanted to get a shirt so went into some shops to see look try. hahaaa.. and i think my taste is getting better right??? heeehee.

yepp abt 8plus i needed to go home cos my mum made smthg special for me!!! ABALONE NOODLES!!! WAAAAAAAhhh. and something most embarassing happened... when i reached home, he called to ask if i saw the present then i said.. mmm yar.. then he asked.. nice not... surpried? then i said.. mmm.. ok la.. then suddenly.. he said.. WAADDD OK!!! i took years to choose that. then i stun.. WINNIE THE POOH TAKE YEARS??? hahaha then he said AIYOHHH no LAHHH u never see carefully.. plastic bag have smthg else!!! then i was like.. DOTS.. so went to see.. and faints... i received the most beautiful + ex + memorable present of my life... =)) was super happy until no mood eat dinner.. hehee.. but anyway.. yeah. thanks for the present(S)!!!

and thanks to all who have gave me presents!!! esp: wilson and BY and JESSICA!!!!!! LOVEEEEEEEEEESS

~sukai

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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

LOVING YOU MORE EACH DAYY!!

my life is just filled with stress stress and more stress!!! i realised i hate all the subjects im learning now.. as in the topics sucks.. like quantum physics and maths P and C and probability!! to think i thought math was still ok.. faints.. i nearly died doing the probability questions!! its sooo hard!!! no matter how i try, i am still stuck. haix. so depressing.. and after doing 3hrs of math. i just gave up. i hate it. so gross. and quantum physics is a goner for me cos i totally dunno wad the lecturer was saying. X( im so sad... think my grades will just slide. haiix. i need the intelligence pls!!!

anw.. why i perservered until now? its BECAUSE OF U*... everytime i get reminded of your msg to me, i am sooo motivated.. its always that few verses, that few lines only and everything abt u, i feel so encouraged to go on.. but sometimes its so tiring... and i think i will just break down someday cos i cant take any more of this stress!!! arghh. i know that u also went thro this kinda things before.. and u managed to handle it well.. sometimes i need that ounce of courage! perhaps u could teach me to be a better person? to learn to relax and don stress myself unnec. yeahh..

that's for now! gtg do some cell killing work..

~sukai

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Sunday, April 01, 2007

I MISS YOU LIKE SOO MUCH.

i cant imagine what will become of me when u leave.. cos now.. even a slight 1 wk of not seeing you alr makes me miss u like mad. haiix. i think im so gonna be sad. i dunno. im trying not to be sad because life is alr so stressful for you and i don wanna make u more stress! when u told me what i really wanted to hear i dunno whether to feel happy or sad. and u still mms me that cheeky look on ur face after that. it cheered my up a little but.. august is like approaching. fast. and it feels like im losing u soon. what can i do? i just feel soo helpless. i guess nthg you do now would make me less sad. it actually makes me miss you more. and i think maybe.. u shouldnt send me those funny faces of urs.. although i must say they really made my day.. but... seeing them reminds me of you.. our memories and indirectly the leaving issue. ok.. really hope u understand. from now until august i will definitely cherish the times we are out tgt havin fun. and i promise u i wont be so sad.. or at least i'll try. thanks for being there for me always and of cos cheering me up when im feeling so terrible/stressed.

i guess all i have to say to u is that.. without the memories u have given me, my life would be simply monochrome. u really made me feel like everyday is worth a million of rainbows.. i know this may sound cheesy but its true.. before u go, before u get on with ur life and get so busy that u cant read anythg else im writing to you.. i gotta say this.. no matter what. i will wait for u. i promise. its our promise right? and yes, for u i will study hard and not let this issue affect my grades. i know i can because from day 1 u have given me loads of support.. thank you so much for everythg all the memories all the presents and all the love!
<333 you forever.

~sukai +is this something i should look forward to?+

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