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Sunday, January 28, 2007

THIS WEEK IS CRAZYYY!

tests and tests and more tests are making me go mad! wednesday have SPA(science practical assesment) for physics, doing topic on electricity, gosh.. i better warn my class in case i create an explosion... electricity practicals are so disgusting!! GOD BLESS ME please.. i dont want any injuries, neither do i want any 0 marks for my test. thanks! then friday is another killer day.. math tests and econs tests! faints.. how busy can life get?? im on the brink of going mad because i have like tons of work to do and no rest!!! help!

saturday i went out with him* we had a great time fooling around p.s and like we walked from p.s all the way to orchad... hmm.. had a good talk with him too... but then again... hahhah it wasnt exactly to the point. @.@ everytime its like this!!! this week im going to be soo busy so if you* happen to read this... u should get what i mean la.. sorry hor.. i promise i'll spend more time with you after this week of crazyyy tests.. and thanks for the lovely saturday!

sunday... mugging day. and sleeping day. slept for like 4 hrs in the afternoon!!! im such a lazy gal.. ok im going to sleep now again because tmr have sch!!! so.. not fun!

~sukai

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Saturday, January 20, 2007

FAINTS. I REGRET SAYING J2 LIFE IS HEA @.@

precisely! after i posted that entry.. my life became sooo hectic! and school work is piling up like the rubbish collection plant at the offshore island, homework and topics learnt are getting harder such that i dunno if i really understand! gosh.. my life.. is just so screwed! and to think today i spent 6hrs slacking.. i must be out of my mind... just back from doing art.. going to enter some art competition hahaha.. i miss AEP alot!!! ok please dont kill me the bunch of AEP haters! hahaha but yesh.. i kinda regret not taking AEP in Nj.. but if i took AEP i wont meet seafood clan people! so.. i rather not take AEP. geez.. i think im confusing myself... this is what happens to me at this time of the day...

hmm.. this week was relatively well spent.. except for the hw part.. im quite conteneted with my life now.. first is because cazper is coming back soon! and second is because someone is a changed man.. hahah not totally.. but i can see he's trying... or at least maybe.. but then again... its kinda impossible that we go back to the past kinda rship we had.. so that's my other regret.. i cant really talk to you naturally and i cant be myself.. i dunno why.. after so long.. so many things have changed.. and im accepting the fact that u are no longer my good friend anymore.. last week i read sumiko tan's article in Lifestyle abt her losing a friend... how nice.. i felt the same last year! exactly. i agree with her that we shouldnt depend on others to make ourselves happy.. but who are we to dictate our emotions or who are we to try and control certain feelings? it is not us.. but time i guess. yeah.. i think if i sont stop, this will turn into an argumentative essay... soooo i better go now and slp!

~sukai

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Saturday, January 13, 2007

J2 SCHOOL LIFE IS SOOOO HEA!!
(sasa taught me this new word! means relax!)

hmm shall blog about the weekends, yay! its the weekends again but this week's school was rather slack that it seems to me wed and thurs were like weekends! went out with my gang, ate and talk and slacked! whee! j2 is honeymoon year! hahah i better not say too soon.. later next week have alot of hw then i will just faint and dont feel like doing! =X yup, today.. i received wilson's msg! hahaha so happy.. he is in NS -- tekong! then we still can sms! tmr he has PT.. good luck to him man. hahaha.. this week my PE was quite ok la just that i cant walk properly now.. not as bad as last time, i cant even sit up straight! gosh! NJC pe is sooo tough! @.@

yup, i dunno why im feeling so happy this week.. maybe because "my regret" has been kinda.. resolved in some way although we still dont talk like the way we used to talk and sms like the way we use to sms! anw.. yeah that person actually initiated the sms today! i didnt know how to feel cos the sms sounded veryyy formal.. so i guess i just replied in a formal tone and.. and.. he didnt reply again. sighs. i dunno what to expect now. maybe i shouldnt expect too much.

yep! im so glad time passes soo fast! cos he will be back soon! haiiya. sometimes i duno if its good or bad. he's back means... means.. im going to get the answer.. but yet i miss him sooo much that i want to see him like soon!! i guess i shant think too much.. for now.. im just going to be listening to music and slacking.. im such a lazy gal.. urghh..

~sukai

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Thursday, January 11, 2007

I WILL MISS YOU WILSON NG!!

this week started with alot of work so didnt have time to blog! then wednesday came and i slacked the day through because all of a sudden the workload just vanished! haha thurs which is today i went out with my seafood gang(meisum, peixuan and xuesi) to eat good food! planned to watch a movie -- one last dance but it was at 250pm and by time we reach the place(cine) it was 230pm alr and we havent ate lunch! so in the end, we just went to the HK CAFE upstairs to eat!! guess what!! we ate a total of $52.65 which is SOOOO EXPENSIVE! @.@ i ate beef horfun, xs had fish fillet rice, xuan had black pepper chicken rice(yummyy) and sum had spicy diced chicken and egg with noodles soup! wow! and we ordered an additional peanut butter toast with condensed milk and prawn paste chicken!!! sum and me had 2 ice milk tea each! when the food came, it appeared soooo yummy! but the serving was sooo huge! we couldnt finish all.. so wasted alot of food! >.<" then we took 130hrs to eat?? ahhaha so long! after that we shopped! walk around cine and taka.. bought stuff(food) and bought a present for someone from our class! hahaha yep! then went home!

haiyoo. im so sad all of a sudden! wilson ng is going "away" tmr! he has NS... sobs. 3 weeks he cannot come out from camp! yuck! im alr starting to miss him la!! last year, i rmb smsing him abt everythg(happy sad crappy blahh, u name it!) then he would definitely reply and tell me lame stuff or make me jealous cos he can always leave sch sooo early as he takes 1 sub less.. sobs.. now.. must wait until night time then can sms!! so miserable.. i mean me.. hahaha wanna complain to him about school work also have to wait until night time to talk! then maybe he would be too tired to talk.. then.. arghh i would miss him even more!!! GRRR. MY DEAR WILSON!! you must come back soon!!! and take care laaa..

sobs.. so sad.. in due time, my other frens would all be gg to army as well.... even my shifu! then who can i complain to?? hahaha.. nvm nvm... hope time past faster! EEEK.. i realised gt one econs essay not done! better do now so im going off!!!

~sukai +liang jing ru's song is sooo nice+

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Tuesday, January 02, 2007

JINX! WAD A STUPID COINCIDENCE!

thought i needed an outlet to scream so im bac to blog. today is such a suay day for me! woke up later than usual at 830 then left the house at 9am without even knowing where i would go for breakfast with my family. so my dad suggested tiong bahru market and happily we went down.

just about 10mins after we reached there, my mum went to buy fishball noodles and so my dad and i walked around to scout for more food. then when i walked back to find my mum, i saw him. yes the him is the person i was referring to in my entry on 30dec. he was walking straight towards me! omg. i nearly fainted. i thought my eyes were playing tricks on me! then because i didnt know how to react or whether to say hi, i siam side way to my left and quickly walked away. >.<>

then i went home, kept thinking about this and sms ing my friends to let out my steam!!! and to think that BY refused to reply my sms.. sorry la. i know u rationing yet i sms u.. sorryy. ahhaa but i wont be angry with BY la. but if HE didnt reply, i would be angry because i don see why he don wanna reply. anw, heck it. im just not going to care about this stupid man there. such a disappointment. haix.

watched last episode of <1> wow!! sooo touching, i cried again. =( the story is so inspiring.. now i will learn to cherish every moment of my life, every friend i have and everything! at night, went to grandma house for dinner, today we didnt play ball because it was raining!! sob sob. but still, i hope chinese new year will be here soon so can see them again!

~sukai

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Monday, January 01, 2007

I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL!!! I DONT WANNA STUDY!!

today was quite hectic for me.. woke up at 830am. went for breakfast with my family --ate yong tau foo(yummy!) then walk around tpy central with my mum because we just felt like walking around(hahah) went to NTUC to get some fruits then reach home at 11am plus. after that, i went to study! so good girl right? i studied for 2 hours then went to watch tv from 2 to 4pm! the japanese show <1> on channel56 is soooo touching!! i think i kept cryin after watchin every episode!

hmm after that i came online for a while, and went out to have family dinner with my cousins and relatives at my grandma's house! we had a huge feast! steamboat dinner! the food was sooo nice and yummy that i drank 3 bowls of soup and ate tons of abalone.. hehehe.. there was a variety of food like straw mushrooms, fishballs, veggie, crabstick, chicken etc! ohh! and my uncle opened a bottle of champagne for us(jia yan, sze lyn, me) hahah we had a really good meal and the 3 of us(cousins) kept laughing and talking non stop! very fun! enjoyed ever second i spend with them!

then after dinner, our family gathered at the living to watch tv and eat dessert and fruits.. i was soo full so didnt eat much. just drank some pepsi! WHEE. then after a while, jia yan suggested to play captain's ball! hoho.. so three of us played a variety of ball games at the porch of my grandma's house! we played for 1.5hrs?!! hahaha!! couldnt believe it man! it was sooo fun!! and yes, tmr im meeting them for dinner again and i hope we can play! but.. tmr i need to be home early.. so i guess.. cant play for too long >.<

after tmr will be school day. monday to friday. how sad can my life get. i can imagine the tons of hw. tons of stress and tons of deadlines. YUCK. i dont like it! im still in the holiday mood!! i want to go out and i want to come online and slack! but i know next yr is v impt for me... A levels. no joke! im kinda scared... but.. i shall just face it courageously.. and yes, people please motivate me! =) the worse thing is first day of school or rather first week i have tests alr. and i have not finish studying!! plus, i just heard my friend say she did revision for the whole year's topics even though it was not gg to be tested! omg. help! how can she be so hardworking!!! *faints* i think im so gg to be last in class. everyone is working so hard and im not. sigh.

okok, it will be the so called "last" entry b4 my school starts unless tmr i decide to drop by again. and one thg, my computer is seriously crazy so it might be spoilt like any time which means no online for me. gross. for now, i just got to wish everyone

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!!!

~sukai + GOD bless everyone and please bless me too esp for my tests and exams +

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